Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Nature -- Fiction; Triangles (Interpersonal relations) -- Fiction; Wales -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
Slowly the meaning of this dawned on Edward. He sat down and put his
hands up before his face. He was broken, not so much by the insult to
himself as by the fixed idea that he had exposed Hazel to all this. He
traced all her troubles and mistakes back to himself, blaming his own
love for them. While he had been fighting for her happiness, he had
given her a mortal wound, and none had warned him. That was why he was
sure there was no God.
They sat round and looked at their work with some compunction. The old
beeman cleared his throat several times.
'O' course,' he said, 'we know it inna true, minister. Mr. James
shouldna ha' taken it on his lips.' He looked defiantly at James out of
his mild brown eyes.
Edward did not hear what he said. Hazel was puzzling over James'
meaning. Why had he made Edward like this? Love gave her a quickness
that she did not naturally possess, and at last she understood. It was
one of the few insults that could touch her, because it was levelled at
her primitive womanhood. Her one instinct was for flight. But there was
Edward. She turned her back on the semi-circle of eyes, and put a
trembling hand on Edward's shoulder. He grasped it.
'Forgive me, dear!' he whispered. 'And go, now, go into the woods;
they're not as cold as these. When I've done with them we'll go away,
far away from hell.'
'I dunna mind 'em,' said Hazel. 'What for should I, my soul?'
Then she saw how dank and livid Edward's face had become, and the
anguished rage of the lover against what had hurt her darling flamed up
in her.
'Curse you!' she said, letting her eyes, dark-rimmed and large with
tears, dwell on each man in turn. 'Curse you for tormenting my Ed'ard,
as is the best man in all the country--and you'm nought, nought at
all!'
The everlasting puzzle, why the paltry and the low should have power to
torment greatness, was brooding over her mind.
'The best!' said James, avoiding her eyes, as they all did. 'A
hinfidel!'
'I have become an unbeliever,' Edward said, 'not because I am unworthy
of your God, but because He is unworthy of me. Hazel, wait for me at
the edge of the wood.'
Hazel crept out of the room. As she went, she heard him say:
'The beauty of the world isn't for the beautiful people. It's for
beef-witted squires and blear-eyed people like yourselves--brutish,
callous. Your God stinks like carrion, James.' _Nunc Dimittis_.
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