Good-bye to all that : $b An autobiographyGraves, Robert
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Good-bye to all that : $b An autobiography
Graves, Robert
Authors, English -- 20th century -- Biography; Graves, Robert, 1895-1985; World War, 1914-1918 -- Personal narratives, British
I made friends with the French Benedictine Fathers who lived near by;
they had been driven from Solesmes in France by the anti-clerical
laws of 1906, and had built themselves a new abbey at Quarr. The
abbey had a special commission from the Vatican to collect and edit
ancient church music. Hearing the fathers at their plain-song made us
for the moment forget the war completely. Many of them were ex-army
officers who had, I was told, turned to religion after the ardours of
their campaigns or after disappointments in love. They were greatly
interested in the war, which they saw as a dispensation of God for
restoring France to Catholicism. They told me that the freemason
element in the French army had been discredited and that the present
Supreme Command was predominantly Catholic—an augury, they said, of
Allied victory. The guest-master showed me the library of twenty
thousand volumes, hundreds of them blackletter. The librarian was an
old monk from Béthune and was interested to hear from me an accurate
account of the damage to his quarter of the town. The guest-master
asked me whether there were any books that I would like to read in
the library. He said that there were all kinds there—history, botany,
music, architecture, engineering, almost every other lay subject. I
asked him whether there was a poetry section. He smiled kindly and
said, no, poetry was not regarded as improving.
The Father Superior asked me whether I was a _bon catholique_. I
replied no, I did not belong to the true religion. To spare him a
confession of agnosticism I added that my parents were Protestants.
He said: ‘But if ours is the true religion why do you not become a
Catholic?’ He asked the question in such a simple way that I felt
ashamed. But I had to put him off somehow, so I said: ‘Reverend father,
we have a proverb in England never to swap horses while crossing a
stream. I am still in the war, you know.’ I offered: ‘Peut-être après
la guerre.’ This was a joke with myself; it was the stock answer that
the Pas de Calais girls were ordered by their priests to give to Allied
soldiers who asked for a ‘Promenade, mademoiselle?’ It was seldom
given, I was told, except for the purpose of bargaining. All the same,
I half-envied the Fathers their abbey on the hill, finished with wars
and love affairs. I liked their kindness and seriousness; the clean
whitewashed cells and the meals eaten in silence at the long oaken
tables, while a novice read the _Lives of the Saints_; the food, mostly
cereals, vegetables and fruit, was the best I had tasted for years—I
was tired of ration beef, ration jam, ration bread and cheese. At
Quarr, Catholicism ceased to be repulsive to me.
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