Graham's Magazine, Vol. XIX, No. 3, September 1841Various
General
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XIX, No. 3, September 1841
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
The evening passed away, and I am not quite sure that I was sorry when
the hour of departure had arrived. The strange and overwhelming passion
which had taken possession of my soul filled me with embarrassment, and
aware that I acted ridiculously, it afforded much relief to escape. With
Desmond I was abrupt, or silent and moody. I could not define my
sensations, and chose rather to keep them to myself than to subject
myself to any experimental advice, even from my bosom friend. Taking the
earliest opportunity to get rid of him, I hurried to my room; but I
could not sleep; I could not lie down. I sprang from my bed, and paced
the chamber in a kind of ecstacy, absorbing but indescribable. I rushed
to the window, bathed my brow in the cold moon-beams, and gazed
rapturously on the spangled canopy above me. Everything looked
beautiful. My breast expanded. I inhaled with delight the lucid night
air, and fancied there never was a being so foolish and so happy. What
an hour—what a theme for poetry! I had never written anything in verse,
but what with moonshine and love, I could not fail to succeed. I opened
my desk, carefully locked the door, and examined the room to be certain
that none should witness my indiscretion. I then drew forth the writing
instruments, and prepared to lose not a passing thought. After much
difficulty I indited a line; but not another could I wrest from my
distracted brain. I threw down my pen in despair, pushed my desk away,
and heartily bemoaning my poetic barrenness, retired somewhat calmed to
my bed. A gradual dormancy, entrancing, delightful, stole over my
senses. I thought of Virginia Melville. I recalled every feature of her
beautiful countenance; not a smile, not a word that had charmed me, were
lost. I saw all, heard all again. Then the whole became confused. I
roamed in a garden, where the hyacinth bloomed and the honeysuckle and
woodbine gracefully twined round the oak, and the rose unfolded its
young buds. The place was lonely—far from the haunts of man; yet the
song of the linnet and the thrush enlivened its solitude, and I felt
that I was not alone. And while I roamed in this Elysian garden, I
espied a beautiful rose, a fairy-like rose, young and tender and
blooming. And I approached it and gazed upon it, and methought it moved.
I paused in wonder. I knelt me down on the green sward, and my eyes were
fixed upon the rose. And I fancied it expanded to my view, and wore a
beauteous form. In rapture I feasted on this fairy vision. I was silent.
I felt the inadequacy of language to express my admiration; and I gazed,
and my heart was full. The fairy-rose, with down-cast looks, smiled upon
me. That smile betrayed it; I recognised in the disguise the features of
her I loved. I was wild—enchanted. I snatched a leaf from a weeping
willow, and inscribed thereon a verse. I flung it on the breeze, and it
was borne to the hand of the beauteous vision. And whilst she read I
trembled. A mystic veil now obscured my sight.
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