Graham's Magazine, Vol. XL, No. 1, January 1852Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XL, No. 1, January 1852
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“But what can you have to occupy yourself with? Surely, you cannot be
satisfied with telling your beads over?”
“I have my netting by me, and then there are always one’s thoughts and
memories.”
“And your memories, my dear,” said I, “what are they? What can you
remember that is not so mingled with pain and deprivations, that the
contemplation of it must be sad rather than pleasant?”
In reply, she told me in her own simple and touching manner the story of
her mother’s death, and the almost revelation that preceded it.
“And how do you feel about it yourself?” said I.
“I fully believe, madam, that such an impression would not have been
vouchsafed by the good God to my mother, unless it had been true, and
important also that I should know it.”
“Then you still look for your father, my child?”
“As I look for the sunrise to-morrow,” she answered, raising her clear
eyes to heaven. “Some day he will certainly come.”
“And meanwhile!”
“Meanwhile, I think of him continually. I imagine always how he would
like to have me conduct myself, and in all my little troubles I look
forward to the time when I shall feel no more sorrow. You will not think
me superstitious, madam, when I tell you that my mother’s heart is very
near to mine, and often I am conscious of heavenly thoughts that I am
sure are of her whispering to my spirit.”
I would not for the world have disturbed fancies so sweet and holy as
filled the breast of this lovely child with any doubts of their reality,
even if I had not been more than half inclined to agree with her in the
belief of spiritual intercourse with the departed.
“But, Claire,” said I, after a long pause, “it is a strange and terrible
thought, one at which we instinctively revolt, that close to us, by
night or by day, is a haunting spirit, even if it were our mother’s. It
seems to me I should so dread the answer, that I could never gather
courage to speak to such a spirit, if I believed it could and would
answer me.”
“I suppose it would not answer. Ah! if it could do so, would it not long
since have responded to the agonized cry of the bereaved! But, though it
is not to sense that it speaks, the impression is not the less vivid or
credible. It is not what you see with your mortal eye, dear lady, that
you believe most fully and heartily. Even if we were to see the beloved
form or hear the beloved tones, a something would whisper to us of doubt
and incredulity. It would be ‘an optical illusion,’ or ‘a derangement of
the auricular organs,’ and we should very soon come to believe ourselves
entirely mistaken in the impressions we had received. It is only the
mind itself that can take distinct cognizance of its own objects.”
“You speak like a philosopher, dear Claire. Where have you learned to
consider the subject so deeply?”
“Of Father Angelo,” replied the young girl, simply.
“And he is your confessor, I suppose,” said I.
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