Graham's Magazine, Vol. XL, No. 1, January 1852Various
General
Graham's Magazine, Vol. XL, No. 1, January 1852
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
On the second day after he left his room, and three days previous to
that fixed for our marriage, a letter reached him from Bonn, enclosing
some money, and communicating the death of his uncle, who had bequeathed
to him all his property. The receipt of this news gave us much joy. I
looked upon it as an unequivocal guaranty that my troubles were ended.
It may have been selfish in me, but I confess I felt a little
disappointment when he informed me that this communication necessitated
a further delay of our marriage until his return from Germany. I fancied
that as we had been separated so long we should not be parted again so
quickly, but he strove to convince me that his immediate absence was
necessary, and I at last cheerfully assented. He left on the day which
had been fixed for our wedding, and it was agreed he should return on
the following month.
Within a few days after his departure I again fell sick, arising,
perhaps, from my late exertions and insufficient rest. It was
accompanied with the same loss of appetite, nervous fits of crying,
lowness of spirits, and occasional attacks of delirium, which I had
formerly suffered from. My sane moments, however, were enlivened by
pleasing anticipations of Alfred’s return; and I even felt grateful he
was ignorant of my sickness, because I believed it would spare him much
pain and anxiety. I did not recover so soon as I expected. My physician
did not seem to understand my complaint so well as his predecessor.
Four weeks had now elapsed since Alfred departed, and I heard no news of
his return. Three or four days more elapsed without intelligence, and I
became alarmed. At length a letter arrived, addressed to me in his
hand—and my heart throbbed with joy. I felt so delighted, that I
committed, what some will call a piece of extravagance, that is, I
kissed the address, because I was convinced it was his writing. I then
hurriedly broke the seal and began to read the contents. The first
paragraph informed me that he had taken possession of his uncle’s
property, and that it was more valuable than he had supposed, and was, I
fancied, conveyed in cooler language than I expected. The next paragraph
had reference to matters of little importance, but as I read on, another
communication rose up, which made the blood freeze in my veins, and
seemed to suspend the beating of my heart. It told me that now our
relative conditions were greatly changed—that he feared our
dispositions were incompatible—that our marriage was impossible. As I
read on with a brain throbbing and burning, with a bosom struggling
between doubt and despair, I observed an invitation to reside with him,
and a promise to give me a settlement if I subsequently desired a
separation. I think one more paragraph concluded the letter, but I could
read no further. I alternately laughed and cried. I declared it was all
a vile forgery, and then something told me all was true. I declared it
was a dream, but anon the dread reality stared me in the face.
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