Graham's Magazine, Vol. XL, No. 5, May 1852Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XL, No. 5, May 1852
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
This was coming upon a subject which I had often wished to broach, but
which he had never even approached before. I know not what were the
feelings which had prevented me from asking questions. Perhaps they were
mingled. We recollect such sensations more indistinctly than facts that
strike the eye and ear, and fix themselves upon memory by many holds.
Certain I am, however, that it was not want of curiosity or interest,
especially during our residence in Germany and Switzerland, where I
began to think of every thing, and of my own fate and situation more
than any thing else. As far as I can recollect, Father Bonneville’s
careful avoidance of the subject, and a sort of dark awe I felt at
removing the veil from what was evidently a mystery, a sort of
impression that there was something dreadful and horrible behind, often
sealed my lips at the moment I was about to speak. Now, however, I had
tasted enough of sorrow in the world to have manly resolution, and
though Father Bonneville’s weak state of health had prevented me from
inquiring since we had again met, I asked, at once,
“Who was my father?”
He laid his hand gently upon mine, as I sat beside him, near the table,
and looked in my face with an expression not to be forgotten—so
mild—so tender—so sorrowful.
“Ask me no questions, Louis,” he said. “Ask me no questions just now.
You will hear soon enough; and until I know why the remittances which
were always made me for your support and education were withheld when I
was in America, I am bound not to speak. If what I fear, is the case, my
lips will be unsealed. If not, you must wait patiently yet awhile.”
I looked down gloomily on the ground for a moment, and then asked in a
cold, somewhat bitter tone,
“Tell me at least, good Father, is there any thing disgraceful in my
birth.”
“Nothing, nothing,” he exclaimed, clasping his hands vehemently.
“Then was my father a villain, a knave, or a coward?” I asked.
“I loved him well,” replied Father Bonneville, in a tone of deep
emotion, “and so help me heaven, as I believe there never did exist upon
this earth a more gallant gentleman, a more honorable and upright man,
or a more sincere Christian than your father. He was only too good for
his age and for his country.”
A deep silence succeeded, which continued for several minutes, and then,
with a sort of gentle art, he turned the conversation to my residence in
Germany, and my poor Louise—for by this time I had told him all—and
strove to win me from a subject which he saw agitated me so much, by
leading me to one of milder sorrow. But my heart was too full to bear
it; my replies were as brief as reverence for him would permit, and thus
ended our first day in England.
[_To be continued._
* * * * *
MY MOTHER’S SPIRIT.
BY KNYVETT THORNTON.
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