Graham's Magazine, Vol. XLI, No. 1, July 1852Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XLI, No. 1, July 1852
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“Yet, that very night, we spoke coldly and proudly to each other. She,
perhaps—well I cannot tell for what reason; but it stung me, and I
answered bitterly and hastily, and said to myself I would never see her
again.
“We did not meet again for more than a year, strange as it seems, moving
in the same small orbit. I passed her now and then with a beating heart,
as I recognized her face or form upon the side-walk: she—with the same
calm smile of recognition; I—with a cold and hasty bow. I grew almost
to hate her—yet I could not: in the depth of my heart, I yearned to
speak to her again; though I called her selfish and a coquette, most of
all, in memory of that look.
“But, at last, we met; as unexpectedly as at first, and in the same
house. There was every thing to remind me of the past. She was
unchanged, save a softened manner, and that her dark dress was relieved
by crimson ornaments, which suited her wonderfully well.
“She came toward me with extended hand, and as if we had just met from a
journey.
“‘Will you come and see me?’ she said: ‘we shall find a great deal to
talk about, and I have some new songs I am sure you will like:’ and I
was surprised into acquiescence. All that evening I watched her—as she
moved, the centre of admiration, when she smiled, or spoke; she was so
very, very beautiful!—the eloquent color, the constant play of
features. Once, I _fancied_ her eyes turned toward me, with something of
that remembered glance.
“I went home like one in a delirium; all my love rushed back—the
stronger, that the current had been so long checked. I murmured her
name—with the fondest intonations—the silence echoed ‘Beatrice!
Beatrice! My arms seemed to clasp her to my heart! I seemed to shower
kisses on those loving eyes! It was a mad, intoxicating dream!
“Every fibre of my frame thrilled to the welcoming pressure of her hand.
She was alone, in the little winter parlor I remembered so well. A warm,
crimson carpet muffled the tread, the glass doors of the conservatory
stood slightly ajar, filling the atmosphere with the odorous breath of
the heliotrope and sweet-scented daphne. Crimson curtains fell in heavy
folds to the floor, her piano and harp stood in the accustomed places,
the fire burned low, and wax lights, in massive silver candlesticks,
stood at one end of the room. It was all so familiar, the gleaming of
the single bust in the corner, upon its marble pedestal, the Magdalen,
her favorite picture—which I wondered at at first—hung near it, and
there was her own portrait, faithful to the life, with _those eyes_
looking down upon me. Perhaps she thought me sad, for she proposed
music, and I leaned on the mantle and listened. At first it was a gay
song; but that was not suited to her mood, and gradually she glided into
those mournful strains of Schubert and Mendelssohn, which she knew to be
my favorites of old.
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