Graham's Magazine, Vol. XX, No. 5, May 1842Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XX, No. 5, May 1842
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
And what felt Edith at this meeting? She had lived on one sweet hope,
and had borne absence, and sorrow, and the wasting of weary expectancy
with the patience of a loving and trusting heart. It is true that, as
years sped on, she lost much of the sanguine temper which once seemed to
abbreviate time and diminish space. It is true that as time stole the
bloom from her cheek and the brightness from her eye, many a misgiving
troubled her gentle bosom, and the shadow of a settled grief seemed
gradually extending its gloom over her feelings. But still hope
existed,—no longer as the brilliant sunshine of existence,—no longer
as the only hope which the future could afford,—but faded and dim—its
radiance lost in the mist of years, yet still retaining a spark of its
early warmth. She had many doubts and fears but she still had pleasant
fancies of the future, which, cherished in her secret heart, were the
only fountains of delight in the dreary desert of her wasted feelings.
But now all was at an end. They had met, not as strangers, but, far
worse, as estranged friends. The dream of her life was rudely
broken—the veil was lifted from her eyes,—the illusion which had given
all she knew of happiness, was destroyed forever. In the words of him
who has sounded every string of love’s sweet lyre, she might have
exclaimed in the bitterness of her heart:—
“Had we but known, since first we met,
Some few short hours of bliss,
We might in numbering them, forget
The deep deep pain of this;
But no! our hope was born in fears
And nursed ’mid vain regrets!
Like winter suns, it rose in tears,
Like them, in tears it sets.”
Mrs. Pemberton at first formed some schemes, founded on the remembrance
of Edward’s former liking for Edith, but when she learned his error
respecting Margaret she began to fancy that if her eldest daughter was a
little too old, the younger was none too young to make a good wife for
the rich merchant. She expressed her admiration of his expanded figure,
extolled his fine hair, which happened to be a well made wig, was in
raptures with his beautiful teeth which owed their brilliancy to the
skill of a French dentist, and, in short, left no means untried to
accomplish her end. But she was doomed to disappointment. It is not easy
to kindle a new flame from the ashes of an extinguished passion. There
was a secret consciousness, a sense of dissatisfaction with himself,
that made Ellis rather shrink from Edith’s society, and threw an air of
constraint over his manner towards the whole family. He was not happy in
the presence of her who appeared before him as a spectre of the past,
bearing reproaches in its melancholy countenance, and after a few
embarrassed attempts at carelessness in his intercourse with her, he
ceased entirely to visit the family.
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