Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXI, No. 2, August 1842Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXI, No. 2, August 1842
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“I was in my fifteenth year, full of exaggerated sensibility, and just
beginning to model my dreams of future happiness after the standard
afforded by my favorite novels, when a circumstance, apparently of
trivial moment, occurred to shadow my whole life with sorrow. The only
accomplishment in which I made any decided progress was that of drawing,
and in this I had early exhibited both taste and skill. Our
drawing-master, an old and wily Italian, requested permission to
introduce his nephew, who could materially aid him in instructing us to
sketch from nature; and, as it involved our school-mistress in no
additional expense, she readily assented. Our new teacher was
accordingly introduced to us under the name of Signior Baldini, but it
needed scarcely one look to make us doubt his relationship to the old
man, for his florid complexion, blond hair, and blue eyes bore little
resemblance to the dark countenance and classical features of the fine
Italian face. Those of us who were novel readers immediately fancied
that we could detect beneath this humble disguise some noble heir or
enamored youth who sought to obtain access to a ladye-love immured
within the walls of our school. Our young and glowing hearts, full of
passions which had been prematurely developed by the mischievous tenor
of our stolen reading, and ready to welcome any thing which might give
occupation to their restlessness, were quickly excited in favor of the
new comer. Our sketching from nature required us to take many walks in
the vicinity, and, though we were never unaccompanied by one of the
female teachers, yet a thousand opportunities for forming an imprudent
intimacy occurred during these excursions. I soon found, however, that
the attentions of Signior Baldini were especially directed to me, and
the vanity of my sex, as well as my own excited fancy, led me to
encourage rather than repulse his proffered advances. I cannot recall
all the details of the vile conspiracy to which I fell a victim. Imagine
a child of fifteen summers subjected to the arts of a man more than
twice her age—a man who had studied human nature in its worst forms,
and therefore well knew how to take advantage of its slightest tendency
to errors—a man whose talents enabled him to conceal the heart of a
demon beneath the features of a demigod. Imagine the effect of these
arts upon a sensitive and romantic girl, a lonely and orphaned creature
who was yearning for the voice of affection, and weaving many a
beautiful fancy of future happiness, to be found only in reciprocal
affection, and you will anticipate the result.
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