Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXX, No. 1, January 1847Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXX, No. 1, January 1847
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
gifted, poverty and neglect arrived—years of indifference followed, the
character of the lover soon merging into that of the selfish and
somewhat exacting husband—and now it had come to this. Calling him
toward her, he took her proffered hand with a look of cold compassion.
“I have been dreaming strangely to-night, Alexander,” said she, “and
have the strangest sensations, as if all past life were passing in
review before me, and its experiences crowded into a few fleeting
hours—circumstances which I had believed long since forgotten, and
feelings which I had thought to have outlived or crushed into oblivion.
Yet there is none that return to me with a more vivid consciousness than
my old feeling for you; and even now I seem to leap back over long,
weary years of coldness, indifference, and estrangement, and the sad
imprints with which they have dimmed your features, and to see you stand
before me, ardent and beautiful as when I dreamed that Heaven had no
brighter reflection than the fondness of your eyes. You will pardon
this,” said she, on perceiving that such sympathies moved him not; “I
have no wish to recall you to the past, nor too late to revive an
extinguished affection, which can so seldom be brought into review
without pain—far less with a thought of reproach for any, except for
myself. It is but to testify to you in parting, that with the life I
have led, happy as it was before I knew you—spent amid dreams of
beauty, and the caresses of a family that sympathized with the delights
of my calling, and were proud of my fame, honored as it afterward became
when my achievements as an artist, extolled in every country in Europe,
drew me forth from my retreat to receive that brief and brilliant
homage, less intoxicating to me on the score of my individual self, than
as a tribute to the success of that art to which I had consecrated the
energies of my existence—yet there is no part of it I would willingly
live over again but the early, too brief moments spent near you—no part
of it than this I more fervently hold to my heart, as the true gold
hoarded from what else appears, in this hour whose solemnity dispels all
illusions, the dross and scum of existence. Does not this prove that
love is immortal? And now a thought has struck me, that that sweet,
bright blossoming which, alas! for us yielded so little fruit, may yet
offer a harvest to be reaped in some other world. Will you think of
this, Alexander?—let us part forgiving each other—our next meeting
will be happier—and brighter!”
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