Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 1, July 1849Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXV, No. 1, July 1849
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
He then briefly related his unexpected and providential meeting with
Margaret and her children, and the painful scene which so soon followed
it. He spoke of Mary and Margaret—of their loveliness, their sweet
dispositions, and of the consolation and happiness Wingate might yet
receive from their affection.
When he had done speaking, the unhappy man seized the hand of Lelland,
and pressing it fervently, said,
“Wretch—wretch that I am! how little have I merited such goodness. It
is, indeed, more than my guilty soul can bear. I had rather you would
stab me to the heart than thus pierce my soul with deeds of
kindness—for I deserve it not. It was I, Lelland, who robbed you of one
of God’s choicest treasures. When driven almost to despair by the unjust
treatment of her father, who should have been to her more than father
ever was, poor Margaret wrote you that letter which would have confirmed
your happiness and hers. It was _I_, who, goaded on by hate for you, and
a determination to make her mine—it was I who destroyed it! I watched
the struggle of her pure heart; I saw her cheek pale day by day, and yet
I repented not—nay, I gloried in my revenge. At length she became my
wife—and an angel she ever was to me, always so kind, so patient with
my follies; but I knew she loved you—I knew her heart was silently
breaking, her strength wasting, and instead of moving my pity, it only
drove me to madness. I was jealous even of my sweet babes, that they
were loved more than me. For years I ran a wild career of riot and
debauchery, and only came to my senses to see my poor injured wife was
truly dying; then came remorse—but it was too late. My business had
been neglected—my affairs were in ruin, and I saw myself on the brink
of poverty. The doctor had said that change of air would do much toward
her restoration; and now, as anxious to restore as I had been to
destroy, I resolved to come to New York and find some employment which
should warrant my removing my family here. I did so, and was so
fortunate as to obtain a situation as book-keeper, with a handsome
salary. In a few months I wrote my wife and children to join me. I
received for answer that she was now too feeble to journey. This made me
angry, though why, God only knows, except that I would not let her die
among scenes your love had hallowed—and I immediately wrote a
peremptory command for her to come, naming the day I should expect her.
In this wicked frame of mind I went out into the streets, and,
unfortunately meeting a gay companion, was induced to enter a
gambling-house, and ere I left, every dollar I possessed in the world
was swept from me. In the vain hope of winning back my money, I again
sought that den of destruction; need I say, so far from retrieving, I
left it hundreds in debt. Then, then, Richard Lelland, I became a
_forger_—yes, forged the name of my worthy employer—was detected, and
fled with my ill-got gains. The day I had appointed my poor Margaret to
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