Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXVI, No. 4, April 1850Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXVI, No. 4, April 1850
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
I could not but admit her reasoning to be perfectly natural—just such
as one might expect from a young, loving heart—for it is a bitter
thought that by the death of our souls’ idols worldly comforts are to be
granted us! And does not this tend to harden the feelings of the
survivor—to crush the sensibilities, and render them insensible to
those holy influences which come to the sincere mourner—turning sorrow
into joy—mourning into gladness! nay, does it not produce selfishness
and unrighteous wishes, even _before_ death!
_Life Insurance!_ Ay, write it, fiend, in letters of flame, and seal it
with the blood of sacrifice! ha—ha! you would scorch my brain—but you
cannot—it is _seared—seared!_
[The reader must recollect this is the speech of a madman—for certainly
no sane person can deny or doubt the immense benefits daily arising from
the noble institution of Life Insurance. In the case of this poor
wretch, it would seem that the sudden loss of wealth acting upon a mind
unhealthy from youthful excesses, and shattered by illness, had produced
a morbidness upon which any chimera long dwelt upon, no matter in what
shape it appeared, might at length impel to insanity—indeed, the very
fancy brooded over, that Fanny in the event of his death would become a
beggar, had already driven him, as we have seen, to the verge of madness
when his friend advised the life insurance, and it is easy to conceive
how the re-action from despondency to joy might, in the sickly state of
his mind, have produced the lamentable result. Whatever, therefore, the
unhappy Denton utters in his delirium against that institution for whose
blessings the widow and the fatherless daily offer up prayers of
thankfulness, must be considered only as the ravings of insanity.]
I labored in every way to do away the prejudices of my darling Fanny. I
pictured to her in the strongest language what would be her wretched
situation, left friendless and penniless by my death, and little by
little she yielded to my arguments, and conversed calmly, though with an
air of touching sadness, upon the subject.
My heart thus relieved of the burthen so long oppressing it, I became
cheerful. My sighs and melancholy no longer grieved the tender
sympathies of Fanny, and as in my happiness her own was found, what
wonder her gayety soon outmeasured mine. Indeed one would have thought
we were possessed of all the treasures of the earth, we were so happy.
And what are the treasures earth can boast to equal love and
contentment! I know it—ah, I know it—for these treasures were once
mine—but they are gone—_gone_ I say—ha! do you mock me, fiend—do you
laugh at my agony!
This state of bliss soon ended.
The demon came—whispering words which turned my heart to ice, and set
my brain on fire!
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