Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXVI, No. 4, April 1850Various
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Graham's Magazine, Vol. XXXVI, No. 4, April 1850
Various
Literature -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
From that day I saw poor Fanny’s heart was broken. She breathed no
complaint—she uttered no reproach, not even from those languid eyes
which ever beamed on me with so much tenderness—wretch, infamous wretch
that I was; but I saw the fatal blow was given. And I also saw, with a
fiendish joy, that she was afraid of me—yes, _afraid_—ha! ha! She
thought me mad—_me_! How I reveled in this idea; what gambols I held
with my demon, in my joy that I could affright her timid soul—how I
gloried in it! Her monomany was such a farce, to believe _me_ mad! I
knew she would die sooner than complain of my treatment—and the demon
shouted, “Take your revenge now for the happiness she expects from your
death; give ten thousand deathly stabs to her heart by your unkindness,
for the _ten thousand dollars_ she will finger! Leave her no
peace—waste her to a skeleton, and then—_let her enjoy the Life
Insurance—ha! ha!_”
Sometimes I resolved I would live until the day the policy expired, and
then die—_cheat her at last_.
There were seasons, however, when I threw off the mask of the
madman—for, remember, I was not mad—when I would take my Fanny to my
arms with love and kindness, when I would entreat her to forgive me,
while with her true woman’s heart she would bless me and pardon my guilt
toward her.
On the first of February the policy on my life would expire. For some
weeks I had been uniformly kind to my poor wife. The demon had departed
for a season, but you may be sure he was not far off. As the first of
the month drew near she became more cheerful—her step was lighter, and
a smile, as of old, played around her sweet mouth.
It was the afternoon of the 31st of January that I drew Fanny to my
bosom as I reclined upon the sofa, and carelessly playing with her
beautiful ringlets as I spoke, said,
“Do you know, dearest Fanny, the policy on my life expires to-morrow,
and yet you see here I am hale and hearty—what a pity!”
“Thank God, my dear Henry, that you are so!” she replied, tenderly
embracing me, “thank God!” and tears glistened on her long curling
lashes.
“Shall I renew it, Fanny?” I asked smiling in her face.
“Oh no, Henry, not for worlds—if you love me, don’t renew it!” she
cried, slipping from my arms upon her knees, and pressing my head to her
bosom. “Oh, my dear Henry, you know not the agony I have suffered from
that simple act of yours, done in all love and kindness to me—no,
Henry, don’t renew it!” she added, while a shudder passed over her.
“Ah,” whispered the demon, tugging at my heart-strings till they
snapped, “is not she a good actress—how well she feigns; she weeps,
don’t she—but it is because you are not in the church-yard!”
For the first time I paid no heed to the demon, but kissing my darling
Fanny, and promising I would comply with her wishes, I withdrew to my
office.
That evening—little did I think it was to be my last with my
beloved—my angel wife—my _last—last—last_!
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