Gray youth: The story of a very modern courtship and a very modern marriageOnions, Oliver
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Gray youth: The story of a very modern courtship and a very modern marriage
Onions, Oliver
Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Women -- Social and moral questions -- Fiction
"Oh, Amory!" Cosimo reproached her; but he fidgeted uneasily. Perhaps
he had suddenly remembered Pattie Wynn-Jenkins.
"Because--because----" Amory's voice quavered now, "because if you
did, Cosimo, it wasn't true--it wasn't--I trusted you as I thought you
trusted me----"
She showed signs of breaking down. That was infinitely pathetic. Is it
not pathetic, when one who is prepared to defy the whole world provided
she is allowed her single beautiful friendship, finds that friendship
too yielding under the strain? Cosimo thought so, and put out his hand
rather aimlessly.
But Amory drew her own hand back. The pathetic weakness passed.
Wearily she laughed now.
"Oh no, better not, Cosimo. There are perfectly innocent things that we
can't allow ourselves. It's hard, isn't it? but you see what the world
is. It's probably damned us already; we're probably damned at this
moment for being together here; but as long as we give it no reason
it only recoils on its own head. I'm perfectly willing to accept the
situation. I accepted it in a sense when I did that foolish thing with
the Antinöus. I thought then that I was just vowing myself to my art,
but I see now that it was a far greater thing. It really meant that I
chose all the large and beautiful and abstract things--a sort of life
of toil--and put off these other things once for all. I didn't know;
I might not have had the courage if I'd known; but there's no going
back. Once I said our friendship must end, Cosimo, but that's over too.
They'd talk just the same if we ended it now. So let them talk. It's
bitter, but if I can bear it you ought to be able to. After all, there
is that petty sense in which I lose more than you do."
Cosimo had been staring hard at her. Again he had a merely conventional
look. This time it was that of a man who, occupied with important and
practical things, indulgently allows a woman to talk while he arrives
at his conclusion. Presently he seemed to have come to the conclusion.
His face was set.
"Well," he said, rousing himself, "that leaves only one thing to be
done."
"Precisely," said Amory, with a little shrug.
"You must marry me," said Cosimo.
Amory fell back into the sofa-corner and for a moment looked at him as
if she did not believe she could have heard aright. Then she smiled.
She shook her head slowly.
Poor, foolish Cosimo! Was _that_ all he saw? Well she must teach him....
"Don't you see, Cosimo," she said, as patiently as if she had been
instructing a child, "that that's the one thing that _can't_ be done?"
"Can't!--It must!"
"Really, Cosimo----"
"But it's as plain as it can be----"
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