United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Villages -- Fiction
"Oh--just odds and ends--mostly trifles. There was a dance programme,
a black kid glove of his wife's, some letters from a chum that's dead,
an old knife his grandfather once gave him when he was a boy, the last
knit necktie his mother had made him and a box of toys, beautiful,
hand-carved toys.
"It seems that the Tomlinses had a baby a long time ago and all the
time they were expecting it Hen was carving it these beautiful toys.
It was a boy and, lived to be a year old, just old enough to begin to
play with things. Then it died. And nobody, it seems, knew how Hen
missed that baby, not even his wife. But he had kept that box of toys
in his tool shed all those years and in the last year had put it in the
drawer with a few other treasures which he had had hidden in odd
crannies without anybody suspecting. It was all he had, he said, that
was his very own. And he showed me the handle of the little hammer
where the baby's playing hands had soiled it."
It seems that Hen explained the other things too. The dance programme
he saved because that was where he first knew that his wife cared about
him. She had selected him for the lady's choice number. The other
things Hen kept because they were given to him by people who had all
sincerely liked him.
"You see," Hen had said, "nobody knows how hard it is to be a little
man. Nobody respects you. Your folks always apologize and try to
explain your size or tell you not to mind. And strangers and friends
poke fun at you. After a while, of course, you learn to laugh at
yourself on the outside and folks get to think that it's all a joke for
you too and that you don't mind. But you never laugh on the inside or
when you're by yourself. And you get awful tired of looking up to
other people all the time and you begin to wish somebody'd look up to
you once in a while.
"I used to think Aggie thought a heap of me even if I wasn't as tall as
other men. Grandfather and mother and Bill Simons cared a whole lot
and they didn't mind showing it often. I banked an awful lot on that
baby. And he did sure like me. He followed me all around and minded
me better than Aggie. It was me that always put him to bed and took
him up in the morning. And he'd look up at me and raise his little
hands to me and--"
Cynthia's son looked steadily at Nan.
"Do you want to hear any more?" he asked gently.
"No--no--I don't. Oh, you shouldn't have told me. I'm not good enough
to be trusted with things like that," Nanny said brokenly and winked
and winked her long lashes to shake off the tears.
"You wanted to be told. You were going away because I didn't want to
tell you," he reminded her quietly.
"I know, but I'm just naturally spoiled and mean and wicked. But oh,
won't I be nice to poor Hen Tomlins after this!"
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