Grit LawlessYoung, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Philosophy
Grit Lawless
Young, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Africa -- Fiction
She sank into it, and leaning forward looked fearfully at the quiet
figure, the closed eyes, the pinched grey features. Almost she could
fancy that he was dead already. She took one of the listless hands. It
lay in hers limply, without response, without sense of feeling. She
drew it to her and kissed it. Then she laid her head upon the pillow
beside his and drew his face to hers, and held it pressed close against
her cheek.
And so the doctor found her when he entered with her jealous arms
clasping the inert figure, satisfying their long starvation of denial by
contact, and with the glowing beauty of her warm rounded cheek resting
against the shrunken colourless face on the pillow that had given no
sign of life or movement since her entry. The doctor leant over the
bed. He placed a quiet hand upon her shoulder to prevent her moving,
and bending, low looked intently into the still face.
"He is asleep," he said, and straightened himself and moved noiselessly
away.
And Zoe Lawless remained where she was, undisturbed by everything and
everyone about her, as oblivious as the sick man of external things.
She was beyond thinking of the issues. She had ceased to wonder whether
this crisis in his illness which meant the turning-point one way or the
other would decide in his favour or not. He was hers. That was all
that mattered then. Whether it were life or death that claimed him, it
had given him to her. In the detachment of the moment that was the only
thing that held any reality for her. She had got outside of life for a
time. The things that went on in the world did not concern her; she had
drawn apart from it all to a remote distance and was happy in her
isolation with the body of her love.
All that day Lawless lay in the same comatose condition. It was
impossible to say when he slept and when he was awake. He never
appeared entirely conscious. At intervals the nurse gave him
nourishment or a dose of medicine. She did not disturb Mrs Lawless,
save at meal times to insist on her leaving the room in quest of food.
Zoe went reluctantly, and wandered back after a brief absence, and took
her place as before. Whether she had eaten in the interval was
problematical; but the change and movement were a relief.
She stayed with him until nine o'clock that night. When she left he was
sleeping soundly and comfortably; and, white and weary but
extraordinarily happy, she went to bed and fell promptly into a deep and
dreamless sleep.
And the next day the bedroom door was closed against her again. He was
better. He was fully conscious, but he made no demand to see her; and
in compliance with the doctor's wishes she remained outside.
"Yesterday was the crisis," he said to her. "He's turned the corner.
He isn't out of the wood, but if there are no excitements he ought to
pull through."
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