He asked her to help him go directly out into the sun; for it was
pleasant and warm outside, but within he sat chilly all day long. It
was no easy task, for the old man was heavy, and leaned upon her so that
she could scarcely stand under his weight, but at last they struggled
out to where the sun shone pleasantly on the water, and gilded the
trunks of the old willows with his beams. Here the old man sat down, and
asked Elsli to sit by him. She did so, and he went on talking.
“Yes,” he said, “that is the same old Rhine! How I have always loved it!
But it will soon be all over with me; I shall not be long here to see
it; I must go, and where? But it’s foolish to talk this way to you; you
are too young to understand. Your life is just beginning. Are you not
happy, and glad to think that you can stay here by this beautiful water
for a long, long time to come?”
“I don’t think of that when I look at the river,” said Elsli. “I think
of the beautiful stream that flows through Paradise, and of the
happiness of those who live there.”
“What do you say! How can you know anything about that?” said the old
man, looking at Elsli in amazement.
“I know what is said about it in a beautiful song; I have known it a
long time. One of my friends taught it to me, and she has gone there
already. Shall I repeat it to you?”
The old man nodded assent, and Elsli was glad to repeat the song again
to some one who must be interested to hear it, since he was so soon
going there himself, he said. She began directly, and, as the old man
listened with great attention, she kept on to the end. He shook his head
several times during the recitation, and, when it was finished, he
said:--
“That will not be for me.”
Elsli was very much startled. “But why not, why not?” she asked,
anxiously. “It is certainly for every one; we must all die some time,
and then how happy we shall be, when we go there.”
He shook his head again.
“Not for me; it is only for the good.” He said no more for some minutes,
and Elsli sat in silence. At last he spoke again.
“I could tell you something, but I don’t think you would understand me.
If a man doesn’t get along well in life, and he thinks that God can help
him but does not, he says to himself that there’s no use in praying, and
he must help himself as he can; and so he grows reckless and does things
that are wrong and that he shouldn’t do; then when he comes to die, and
he has not thought for a long time anything about God and Heaven, then
the door of Paradise does not open to him, and he cannot go in to that
happy life. But why do I talk to you of this? You cannot understand.”
But Elsli did understand partly, for she remembered hearing her
step-mother once say it was easy enough for those to pray who had all
they wanted, for they could see that God helped them; but he had never
helped her. And Elsli could hear again the sorrowful tones of her
father’s voice as he answered:--
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