Growing Up: A Story of the Girlhood of Judith MackenzieConklin, Nathaniel, Mrs.
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Growing Up: A Story of the Girlhood of Judith Mackenzie
Conklin, Nathaniel, Mrs.
Christian life -- Fiction; Conduct of life -- Fiction; Girls -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“‘Yes, in a minute. Let’s go down stairs and look at all the doors
and windows again.’
“The fastening on every door and window was tried anew. We were
locked in. The world was locked out. I did not look out again at the
fire-flies.
“I sat down before the bureau while Elsie stood behind me and brushed
and braided my long hair; doing my hair would comfort her if anything
could.
“But what would comfort me?
“My _Daily Light_ I had put in my satchel; I liked to have it open on
my bureau; it was bound in soft leather, two volumes in one: I found
the date, August XV., in the Evening Hour.
“‘Read aloud,’ said Elsie.
“My glance caught the large type at the head of the page. My heart
beat fast, the tears started, but I cleared my throat and read
unconcernedly: ‘I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness,
and speak comfortably unto her.’
“‘Read it again,’ said Elsie, brushing softly. I read it again. Elsie
undressed and crept into bed.
“‘You didn’t say your prayers,’ I remonstrated.
“‘I like to say them in bed,’ she replied.
“So did I that night.
“I placed the lamp, burning brightly, on the floor in the hall
opposite my door, leaving the door wide open, then I lay down, and
said my prayers in bed.
“Elsie was soon asleep; my prayer ended with the earnest petition,
several times repeated: ‘Please let me go to sleep quick and stay
asleep all night.’
“Then I watched the light, and thought about home, and fell asleep.
“A voice awakened me: Elsie was sitting up in bed:—
“‘I’ll do your hair, Marion,’ she said thickly, talking in her sleep.
“I pressed her down, and covered her; she did not waken. But I was
awake, wide awake, alone in a great wilderness. There was no sound,
no sound anywhere, but a stillness like the stillness of death.
“Then sh—sh—sh—a hush, a soft pressing against something—a padded
shoulder against a door, a soft fist at a window; then the stillness
like the stillness of death. I was awake; I did not sleep.
“The soft, soft sound came again and again; the softest sound I had
ever heard, and then the stillest silence.
“Should I get up, bring the lamp in, and lock the door?
“But suppose there were no key in the door—it was swung back, I could
not see the inside key-hole; if I should get up and find no key, and
could not lock the door, I should confess to myself that I was
afraid—how could I lie there, with the door shut and not locked, and
be afraid? _I was afraid to be afraid._ I would rather lie there, and
look with staring eyes at the lamp and the wide stairs, and listen,
and listen, with my very breath, and know that I was not afraid.”
“Oh, dear!” cried Judith, with a choking in her throat.
“Morning came. Oh, that blessed streak of dawn. I arose and slowly
pushed the door so that I could see the lock.
“_There was no key._”
“Oh!” cried Judith, with a sudden, sharp breath, cold to her very
finger-tips.
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