Growing Up: A Story of the Girlhood of Judith MackenzieConklin, Nathaniel, Mrs.
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Growing Up: A Story of the Girlhood of Judith Mackenzie
Conklin, Nathaniel, Mrs.
Christian life -- Fiction; Conduct of life -- Fiction; Girls -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
He nodded, wiped his forehead with his soiled handkerchief, pushed
down his tattered straw hat and went down the steps with a careful
tread. Uncle Cephas was an old man—his age had come upon him
suddenly. Marion watched him as he walked away; it was easier to look
at the load of hay, the hayfield beyond the parsonage garden, easier
to look at anything, and think of anything excepting that foreign
letter. Why should Don write to her? He had not written for five long
years, not once since that letter about Judith from Genoa. Was it
because she had—refused him?
During all these years it never once entered her thoughts that she
had refused him.
He did ask her to become his wife—if _that_ were asking. And she had
refused, if that were refusing.
“Can you have dinner in half an hour?” Roger asked, coming to the
open window near the sink. “I only this minute remembered that I
promised King to drive over this afternoon to talk his parish
difficulties over with him. His housekeeper has gone, did I tell you?
He’s keeping house by himself—has been trying it a month, or I’d take
you and Judith for the drive; he would not relish your seeing his
house-keeping. Don’t hurry too much; give me a cold dinner with a cup
of coffee.”
“I’ll ring the bell in half an hour; Judith will help me,” she
replied, hearing the sound of her own voice with every word she spoke.
The words she was speaking did not touch her own life—nothing was in
her life but that letter in her hand; she had as much of it as she
could bear just now, she thought she would hide it away and never
open it. It was another thing to die and be buried.
Judith came and began to set the dinner table and to tell her the
last pretty thing Nettie Evans said—Marion moved absently about the
kitchen; the letter was pushed down in her dress pocket.
When at last she could bear the suspense no longer, she asked Judith
to boil the eggs, and to bring the rice pudding from the cellar, and
went up stairs to her own chamber and shut the door. If she did not
have to bear this—if only it had not come to disturb her peace—she
was satisfied without it. It was a long letter; it was full of
something, her heart was beating so fast and choking her that she
read sentence after sentence without gathering any thought or
incident; it was words, words, words.
“I expect to sail for home next month; I am tired of being a stranger
and a foreigner. You have never written to me beyond those two words;
but I know what you have been to my Cousin Judith. I think I have
grown old since you saw me; life has grown old if I have not. I know
from the letters of Roger and Judith that you are just the same.
Unless you are just the same I would not care to see you again. Your
old friend, Don.”
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