Lucy's heart was none the less trustful that she had tried to increase
Mattie's faith. He who cared for the sparrows would surely hear her cry
for Thomas, nay, would surely look after Thomas himself. The father
did not forget the prodigal son all the time that he was away; did
not think of him only when he came back again, worn and sorrowful. In
teaching Mattie she had taught herself. She had been awake long before
her, turning over and over her troubled thoughts till they were all in
a raveled sleeve of care. Now she too fell fast asleep in her hope, and
when she awoke, her thoughts were all knit up again in an even resolve
to go on and do her duty, casting her care upon Him that cared for her.
And now Mattie's childhood commenced. She had had none as yet. Her
disputatiousness began to vanish. She could not indulge it in the
presence of the great sky, which grew upon her till she felt, as many
children and some conscience-stricken men have felt--that it was the
great eye of God looking at her; and although this feeling was chiefly
associated with awe at first, she soon began to love the sky, and to be
sorry and oppressed upon cloudy days when she could no longer look up
into it.
The next day they went down to the beach, in a quiet place, among
great stones, under the east cliff. Lucy sat down on one of them, and
began to read a book Mr. Fuller had lent her. Miriam was at a little
distance, picking up shells, and Mattie on another stone nearer the
sea. The tide was rising. Suddenly Mattie came scrambling in great
haste over all that lay between her and Lucy. Her face was pale,
scared, and eager.
"I'm so frightened again!" she said; "and I can't help it. The sea!
What does it mean?"
"What do you mean, Mattie?" returned Lucy, smiling.
"Well, it's roaring at me, and coming nearer and nearer, as if it
wanted to swallow me up. I don't like it."
"You must not be afraid of it. God made it, you know."
"Why does he let it roar at me, then?"
"I don't know. Perhaps to teach you not to be afraid."
Mattie said no more, stood a little while by Lucy, and then scrambled
back to her former place.
The next day, they managed with some difficulty to get up on the East
Hill; Mattie was very easily worn out, especially with climbing. She
gazed at the sea below her, the sky over her head, the smooth grass
under her feet, and gave one of her great sighs. Then she looked
troubled.
"I feel as if I hadn't any clothes on," she said.
"How is that, Mattie?"
"Well, I don't know. I feel as if I couldn't stand steady--as if I
hadn't anything to keep me up. In London, you know, the houses were
always beside to hold a body up, and keep them steady. But here, if it
weren't for Somebody, I should be so frightened for falling down--I
don't know where!"
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