Often it happens that things work together without any concerted
scheme. Mrs. Morgenstern had easily divined Mr. Sargent's feelings, and
the very next day began to talk about him to Lucy. But she listened
without interest, until Mrs. Morgenstern touched a chord which awoke
a very painful one. For at last her friend had got rather piqued at
Lucy's coldness and indifference.
"I think at least, Lucy, you might take a little interest in the poor
fellow, if only from gratitude. A girl may acknowledge that feeling
without compromising herself. There has Mr. Sargent been wearing
himself out for you, lying awake at night, and running about all day,
without hope of reward; and, you are so taken up with your own troubles
that you haven't a thought for the man who has done all that lay in
human being's power to turn them aside."
Could Lucy help comparing this conduct with that of Thomas? And while
she compared it, she could as little help the sudden inroad of the
suspicion that Thomas had forsaken her that he might keep well with
his father--the man who was driving them, as far as lay in his power,
into the abysses of poverty; and that this disappearance was the only
plan he dared to adopt for freeing himself--for doubtless his cowardice
would be at least as great in doing her wrong as it had been in
refusing to do her right. And she did feel that there was some justice
in Mrs. Morgenstern's reproach. For if poor Mr. Sargent was really in
love with her, she ought to pity him and feel for him some peculiar
tenderness, for the very reason that she could not grant him what he
desired. Her strength having been much undermined of late, she could
not hear Mrs. Morgenstern's reproaches without bursting into tears. And
then her friend began to comfort her; but all the time supposing that
her troubles were only those connected with her reverse of fortune. As
Lucy went home, however, a very different and terrible thought darted
into her mind: "What if it was her duty to listen to Mr. Sargent!"
There seemed no hope for her any more. Thomas had forsaken her utterly.
If she could never be happy, ought she not to be the more anxious to
make another happy? Was there any limit to the sacrifice that ought to
be made for another--that is of one's self? for, alas! it would be to
sacrifice no one besides. The thought was indeed a terrible one.
All the rest of the day her soul was like a drowning creature--now
getting one breath of hope, now with all the billows and waves of
despair going over it. The evening passed in constant terror, lest
Mr. Sargent should appear, and a poor paltry little hope grew as the
hands of the clock went round, and every moment rendered it less likely
that he would come. At length she might go to bed without annoying her
grandmother, who, by various little hints she dropped, gave her clearly
to understand that she expected her to make a good match before long,
and so relieve her mind about her at least.
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