What a change from the Mary of the snow-storm! She lay on a couch near
the fire, pale and delicate, with thin white hands, and altogether an
altered expression of being. But her appearance of health had always
bees somewhat boastful. Thomas felt that she was far lovelier than
before, and approached her with some emotion. But Mary's illness had
sharpened her perceptions. There was no light in the room but that
of the fire, and it lightened and gloomed over her still face, as
the clouds and the sun do over a landscape. As the waters shine out
and darken again in the hollows, so her eyes gleamed and vanished,
and in the shadow Thomas could not tell whether she was looking at
him or not. But then Mary was reading his face like a book in a hard
language, which yet she understood enough to read it. Very little was
said between them, for Mary was sad and weak, and Thomas was sorrowful
and perplexed. She had been reckoning on this first visit from Thomas
ever since she had recovered enough to choose what she would think
about; and now it was turning out all so different from what she had
pictured to herself. Her poor heart sank away somewhere, and left a
hollow place where it had used to be. Thomas sat there, but there was
a chasm between them, not such as she any longer sought to cross,
but which she would have wider still. She wished he would go. A few
more commonplaces across the glimmering fire, and it sank, as if
sympathetic, into a sullen gloom, and the face of neither was visible
to the other. Then Thomas rose with the effort of one in a nightmare
dream. Mary held out her hand to him. He took it in his, cold to the
heart. The fire gave out one flame which flickered and died. In that
light she looked at him--was it reproachfully? He thought so, and felt
that her eyes were like those of one trying to see something at a great
distance. One pressure of her hand, and he left her. He would gladly
have shrunk into a nutshell. "Good-by, Thomas," "Good-by, Mary," were
the last words that passed between them.
Outside the room he found Mrs. Boxall.
"Are you going already, Mr. Thomas?" she said, in an uncertain kind of
tone.
"Yes, Mrs. Boxall," was all Tom had to reply with.
Mrs. Boxall went into her daughter's room, and shut the door. Thomas
let himself out, and walked away.
She found Mary lying staring at the fire, with great dry eyes, lips
pressed close together, and face even whiter than before.
"My darling child!" said the mother.
"It's no matter, mother. It's all my own foolish fault. Only bed again
will be so dreary now."
The mother made some gesture, which the daughter understood.
"No, mother; don't say a word. I won't hear a word of that kind. I'm
a good deal wiser already than I used to be. If I get better, I shall
live for you and papa."
A dreadful fit of coughing interrupted her.
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