In a prison. But was this a prison in which I was?--this pleasant room
with windows barred only by nodding vine-branches; a room in which
everything spoke of the peacefully cheerful life of its fair
inhabitant.
How I came to this idea I do not know, but I could not rid myself of
it; and there were the ends of red worsted hanging from the little
work-basket. What had a workbasket to do in the room of a man?
I thought and thought, but could arrive at no conclusion; the streak of
mist would not move. Indeed it rather widened and spread to a thin
veil, which threatened gradually to envelope the whole prospect. I did
not care; I had seen it once and knew that I should see it again; knew
that I should hear the voices again which now fell faintly on my ear as
if from a vast distance, among which I could distinguish the muttered
growl of my faithful mastiff, and the soft voice that accompanied the
eyes whose gentle light had shone through my darkness.
When I again awaked, it was really night, or at least so late that the
little astral lamp by my bedside was already lighted, and by its feeble
glimmer I saw some one sitting by my bed whom I did not recognize, as
his head was hidden in his hand. But when I moved, and he raised his
head and asked, "How are you now?" I knew him at once. The low gentle
voice I would have recognized among a thousand. And now, strangely
enough, without having to give a moment's thought to the matter, but
just as if some one had told me everything in my sleep, I knew that the
house in which I had been for the last eight weeks, and in which I had
all this time been tended as carefully as if I had been one of the
family, was the house of the superintendent, of the man who certainly
not to-day for the first time was watching by my bed, and who spoke to
me in a tone of affection, as might a kind father to his son.
Leaning over me, he had taken my hand while he went on speaking; but I
could only half hear his words for another voice that cried out within
me, loud and ever louder, in the words of Scripture: "I am not worthy!"
I could not silence this voice. "I am not worthy!" it continually
cried, until at last I exclaimed aloud: "I am not worthy!"
"You are, my friend," said the soft voice; "I know that you are, even
though you know it not yourself."
"No, no, I am not," I said, in great agitation. "You do not know whom
you are caring for; you do not know whose hand you are holding in
yours."
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