eyes of a child, in this abode of vice and crime?
"My dear young friend, I would that the answer were more difficult.
Would that it were not the same formula by which I can calculate the
equation of your life also. Would that I did not know that the
unnaturalness of our relations is like a poisonous simoon that withers
the grass and even strips the leaves from the oak.
"I have endeavored from what I before knew of you, and from what you so
frankly have confided to me of your earlier life, of your family
affairs, of the life and customs of the citizens of your native town,
to form a background upon which I might design your portrait. And how
cheerless it is, lying in the dim light in which all things now seem to
lie with us! Everywhere littleness, narrow-mindedness, restrictions,
blind adhesion to old formulas, pedantic ceremoniousness, everywhere
the free outlook into life shut out by high walls of prejudice. You
have told me that you besought your father to let you go to sea, and
that he steadfastly insisted that you should be a man of learning, or
at least follow an official career. It was certainly not, as you
accused yourself, a mere inclination to idleness or a hankering after
adventures that again and again prompted this wish; and assuredly your
father, whatever his reasons, did not do well so obstinately to reject
it. He had lost one son at sea--very well; there is another sea, the
sea of happy, active, energetic life, in which all faculties have their
free play. This he should not have forbidden you; and this was really
the sea for which you longed, of which the ocean with its storms was
but the image, though you took it for the reality.
"Your father did not do well; yet we cannot reckon with him, rendered
gloomy by domestic misfortune, too soon left alone in the world, and
irritated by his son's resistance. But what can we say of your pedantic
teachers, not one of whom could comprehend a youth whose character is
openness itself? What of your worthy friends who raised a hue and cry
over the profligate who was leading their sons into mischief, and who
held it a devout work to widen the breach between father and son? Many
an honest German youth has been in your case, my friend; brought up
under such desperately stringent social restrictions, that he thanks
heaven, when, in the far west of America, under the trees of the
primeval forest, he hears no more about social order. True, in your
flight from the oppressive narrowness of your father's house, you did
not get so far as the American forests, but unhappily, only as far as
the woods of the Zehrenburg, and this filled up the measure of your
misfortunes.
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