"On the other side, what I heard of him--and he took care never to let
men's tongues rest about him--confirmed me in the sad conviction that
between him and me a gulf had opened, not to be crossed by even the
sincere love I still felt for him. I heard of the wild life he was
living with the noblemen of his neighborhood, now impoverished by the
war; of the drinking and gaming bouts, of mad exploits of which he was
the originator. At this time a dark rumor got abroad that he was
conducting the smuggling traffic, which during the war had flourished
greatly, being then encouraged by the government, but now was strongly
repressed. But the worst rumors were those that spoke of the wretched
life he led with his unhappy wife. He ill-treated her, it was said; he
had imprisoned her in a cellar; it was unaccountable that the
authorities did not interfere.
"I could not bear to hear these things, of which I did not believe a
word, for the charges were in too glaringly contradiction to the
naturally noble and generous nature of my brother. But I felt a natural
hesitation to mix myself up in these affairs, until a letter which I
received brought me to a decision. The letter was written in bad
French, and the very first words informed me that the unhappy woman who
wrote it must be out of her right mind. 'I hear you know the road to
Spain,' it began, and ended with the words, 'I entreat you to tell me
the road to Spain.' In an hour after receiving it I set out, and, after
so many years, saw my father's house and my brother again. It was a
painful meeting.
"My father's house a ruin, my brother a shadow--worse, a caricature--of
his former self. Ah, my friend, the hammer-theory had shown itself
cruel to its staunchest maintainer. How had the clumsy anvil beaten out
the delicate hammer! How ignoble he had grown in the common world which
he so deeply despised! 'Only despise reason and knowledge,' Goethe
makes the Spirit of Lies say, 'and I have you then safe.' And I say,
only despise men, and you will see how soon you grow despicable to
others and to yourself.
"I told him why I had come; he led me in silence into the park, and
pointed to a woman, who, in a fantastic dress, flowers and weeds in her
glossy-black, half-dishevelled hair, in her hands a guitar with half
its chords broken, was wandering under the trees and among the
shrubbery, sometimes raising her dark eyes, as if in ecstacy, to
heaven, and again dropping them, as in despair, to the earth.
"'You see,' he said, 'it is a lie that I have imprisoned her. Many
another would do it, for it is not a pleasant thing to afford the
public such an exhibition.'
"Take her to her native place," I said.
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