Seated before a deadened fire, she beheld Mr. Orcutt. He was neither
writing nor reading, nor, in the true sense of the word, thinking. The
papers he had evidently taken from his desk, lay at his side
undisturbed, and from one end of the room to the other, solitude,
suffering, and despair seemed to fill the atmosphere and weigh upon its
dreary occupant, till the single lamp which shone beside him burned
dimmer and dimmer, like a life going out or a purpose vanishing in the
gloom of a stealthily approaching destiny.
Imogene, who had come to this place thus secretly and at this late hour
of the day with the sole intent of procuring the advice of this man
concerning the deception which had been practised upon her before the
trial, felt her heart die within her as she surveyed this rigid figure
and realized all it implied. Though his position was such she could not
see his face, there was that in his attitude which bespoke hopelessness
and an utter weariness of life, and as ash after ash fell from the
grate, she imagined how the gloom deepened on the brow which till this
hour had confronted the world with such undeviating courage and
confidence.
It was therefore a powerful shock to her when, in another moment, he
looked up, and, without moving his body, turned his head slowly around
in such a way as to afford her a glimpse of his face. For, in all her
memory of it--and she had seen it distorted by many and various emotions
during the last few weeks--she had never beheld it wear such a look as
now. It gave her a new idea of the man; it filled her with dismay, and
sent the life-blood from her cheeks. It fascinated her, as the glimpse
of any evil thing fascinates, and held her spell-bound long after he
had turned back again to his silent contemplation of the fire and its
ever-drifting ashes. It was as if a vail had been rent before her eyes,
disclosing to her a living soul writhing in secret struggle with its own
worst passions; and horrified at the revelation, more than horrified at
the remembrance that it was her own action of the morning which had
occasioned this change in one she had long reverenced, if not loved, she
sank helplessly upon her knees and pressed her face to the window in a
prayer for courage to sustain this new woe and latest, if not heaviest,
disappointment.
It came while she was kneeling--came in the breath of the cold night
wind, perhaps; for, rising up, she turned her forehead gratefully to the
breeze, and drew in long draughts of it before she lifted her hand and
knocked upon the window.
The sharp, shrill sound made by her fingers on the pane reassured her as
much as it startled him. Gathering up her long cloak, which had fallen
apart in her last hurried movement, she waited with growing
self-possession for his appearance at the window.
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