They dig from the ground too at times stone figures formed as skilfully
as if they were living. Tartar children sit on the heads of these, or
break their limbs with stones. Those children also threw dust and dirt
at me, and called me "Gaur! gaur!" But I endured that patiently, all the
more since Aga Sukyman, which in our speech means Solomon, is
_præfectus_ of this town; he it was who found me in a faint and took me
captive. At first he treated me decently. He did this because, finding
handsome armor on my body, and an inlaid sabre, he considered me a
notable person and expected a large ransom.
I, thinking it improper for a noble even in captivity to dissimulate,
denied out of hand. I told him that though of distinguished family I
had no fortune, and that no one would come for me with ransom. Not
believing this, he, in his cunning, said to me in Russian,--
"Oh, you Poles! each man of you calls himself a poor fellow, and does
not promise ransom, so that he may be put to death; for this you promise
yourselves great delight in heaven from your God."
He did not sell me into Asia, like many others; and having almost
perfect liberty, I went daily to the seashore. There, sitting on the
rocks, I gazed into the distance of the water, which was as blue as
turquoise, and gave rein to my thoughts. Ofttimes I cried bitterly; for
well I understood that my fate was settled by misfortune now, and
sealed. I could not think of knightly service to the country, nor of
glory, nor Marysia. Hence sadness seized my soul; suffering gnawed into
my heart; and there came on me terrible yearning for the Commonwealth,
and all that I had lost in it. I would rather not have come into the
world, I would rather have perished in battle, I would rather Sukyman
had given me to torture at once, for then at least I should have
received the palm, and seen with the eyes of my spirit that which I
yearned for in my body. In pain I saw not the end of my suffering.
Every Friday, which is Sunday for the Tartars, when other prisoners had
rest from their labors, we sat at the stream, and, helping one another
to weep, we often sang the psalm: _Super flumina Babylonis_. Thus the
day passed for us in remembering and speaking of our country, and from
this our souls received no little solace. It happened that among the
prisoners who bore the yoke of captivity in Kizlich I was the only
noble; hence I exercised a certain rule over the others; I strengthened
their spirit, so that not one might be found who should wish to lighten
his misfortune by deserting the true faith. In fact, God did not permit
that.
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