On the morning after that day of disaster Tola's father came to me. When
I saw him, I grew rigid. There was a moment when all thoughts flew from
my head, as a flock of birds fly from a tree. I think that one must feel
something similar at the moment of death. But his face was mild, and
right on the threshold he began to speak, stretching his hands toward
me,--
"Well, we have spent a bad night, have we not? I understand that; I was
young myself once."
I made no answer; I understood nothing; I did not believe that I saw him
before my face. Meanwhile he shook my hands, forced me to sit down, and,
seating himself in front of me, continued,--
"Recover yourself; be calm; let us talk like honest people. My dear sir,
do you think that you are the only person who lay awake? We have not
slept either. As soon as we recovered a little after you left us, we
felt badly enough to be beyond help. We did indeed! When something is
sprung on a man suddenly, he loses his head and then passes the measure.
We were grieved, and, to tell the truth, ashamed. The child rushed off
to her chamber; and the old people, like old people, fell to throwing
the blame on each other. Thou art at fault, woman! thou art at fault,
man! said we to each other. Such is human nature. But later came
reflection and regret. He is young, honorable, capable; he loves our
child with his whole heart, it seems; why in God's name were we so
stubborn? One thing will explain our feelings. Should you ever be a
father, you will understand this, that in parents' eyes nothing is
enough for their child. Still it occurred to us that that which seemed
little to us might satisfy Tola, so we made up our minds that it was
better to inquire what the girl had in her heart, and we called her to
counsel. The third counsellor was a good one! there is no denying that.
When she fell to embracing our feet, and put her dear head on our knees,
in this way-- Well, you know parents' hearts--"
Here he was moved himself, and for a time we sat in silence. Everything
that I heard seemed to me a dream, a fairy tale, a miracle; my suffering
began to change into hope. Tola's father mastered his emotion, and
continued,--
"Indeed, thou hast piled mountains on us, but we are people of good
will, though quick-tempered; and, in proof of this, I will say that if
thou prefer Tola to thy feeling of offence--come--"
And he opened his arms to me. I fell into them, half conscious, half
bewildered, happy. I felt that my throat was contracting, that I was fit
only to burst into sobbing. I wanted absolutely to say something, but
could not. I had in my soul one scream of delight, astonishment, and
gratitude. All this had fallen on me at once, like a thunderbolt;
neither my head nor my heart could take it in, and I felt pain almost
from that excess of change, that excess of thoughts and feelings. Tola's
father removed my hands gently from his shoulders, and, kissing me on
the forehead, said,--
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