"Listen, then: that night in which Selim took her away there was a
storm. Hania wore only a thin dress which got wet to the last thread.
Besides, that mad step cost her not a little. In Horeli, where Selim
took her, she had no change of clothes, so she returned in that same
little wet dress. That very night she got a chill and a violent fever.
The next day old Vengrosia could not hold her tongue, and told her about
thy trouble. She even said that thou wert killed. Evidently that hurt
her. In the evening she was unconscious. The doctor did not know for a
long time what the matter was. Thou knowest that small-pox was in the
village; it is here yet. Hania caught the small-pox."
I closed my eyes, for it seemed that I was losing consciousness; at last
I said,--
"Go on, father, for I am calm."
"There were moments of great danger," continued he. "That same day on
which we looked on thee as lost, she too was almost dying. But to both
of you a lucky crisis came. To-day she is recovering, as well as thou.
In a week or so she will be perfectly well."
"But what happened in the house? Oh, what happened?"
My father was silent and looked at me carefully, as if in fear that his
words might have shocked my still feeble mind. I was lying motionless.
Silence continued a long time. I was collecting my thoughts and was
looking at the new misfortune. My father rose and began to walk with
long strides through the room, looking at me from time to time.
"Father," said I, after a long silence.
"What, my boy?"
"Is she--is she--greatly marked?"
My voice was calm and low, but my heart was beating audibly in
expectation of the answer.
"Yes," answered my father. "As usual after the small-pox. Maybe there
will be no marks. There are marks, now; but they will disappear, of
course."
I turned to the wall. I felt that something worse than usual was
happening to me.
A week later, however, I was on my feet, and in two weeks I saw Hania.
Ah! I will not even attempt to describe what had become of that
beautiful, ideal face. When the poor girl came out of her room, and I
saw her for the first time, though I had sworn to myself previously that
I would not show the least emotion, I became weak and fell into a dead
faint. Oh, how terribly marked she was!
When they brought me out of the faint, Hania was weeping aloud,
certainly over herself and me, for I too was more like a shadow than a
man.
"I am the cause of all this!" repeated she, sobbing; "I am the cause."
"Hania, my dear sister, do not weep; I will love thee always!" and I
seized her hands to raise them to my lips as before. Suddenly I shivered
and drew back my lips. Those hands, once so white, delicate, and
beautiful, were dreadful. They were covered with black spots, and were
rough, almost repulsive.
"I will always love thee!" repeated I, with an effort.
I lied. I had immense compassion in my heart, and the tearful love of a
brother; but the old feeling had flown away, as a bird flies, without
leaving a trace.
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