Unfortunate young girl! What had that pure young soul done that it
should be thus early given over to so much sorrow? Taken from the world,
from honors, riches, youthful delights, and from the triumphs of beauty,
she was still in the cradle when she was already in a prison cell; a
captive with her captive father, she had grown up watching his decay;
and to complete her misery, that she might not be ignorant of any form
of bondage, love had sought her out in prison.
Even then, could she but have kept her Ordener at her side, would
liberty have tempted her? Would she ever have known that a world existed
from which she was cut off? Moreover, would not her world, her heaven,
have been with her in that narrow keep, within those gloomy towers
bristling with soldiers, toward which the passer-by would still have
cast a pitying glance?
But, alas! for the second time her Ordener was absent; and instead of
spending all too brief but ever recurring hours with him in holy
caresses and chaste embraces, she passed days and nights in bewailing
his absence, and praying that he might be shielded from danger. For a
maiden has only her prayers and her tears.
Sometimes she longed for the wings of the free swallow which came to her
to be fed through her prison bars. Sometimes her thought escaped upon
the cloud which a swift breeze drove northward through the sky; then
suddenly she would turn away her head and cover her eyes, as if she
dreaded to see a gigantic brigand appear and begin the unequal contest
upon one of the distant mountains whose blue peaks hung on the horizon
like a stationary cloud.
Oh, it is cruel to live when we are parted from the object of our love!
Few hearts have known this pang in all its extent, because few hearts
have known love in all its depth. Then, in some sort a stranger to our
ordinary existence, we create for ourselves a melancholy waste, a vast
solitude, and for the absent one some terrible world of peril, of
monsters, and of deceit; the various faculties which make up our being
are changed into and lost in an infinite longing for the missing one;
everything about us seems utterly indifferent to us. And yet we still
breathe, and move, and act, but without our own volition. Like a
wandering planet which has lost its sun, the body moves at random; the
soul is elsewhere.
XVIII.
On a vast buckler those relentless men
Terrified hell with fearful oaths;
And beside a black bull which they had slain,
All, bathing their hands in blood, swore to be revenged.
_The Seven Chiefs before Thebes._
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