“'Talk about it without me, then,' I cried, and got up, and marched
out indignant: only it was partly my low cunning to hide my face that
I could not keep the rapture out of. And, as soon as I had retired with
cold dignity, off I skipped into the garden to let my face loose, and I
think they sent him after me; for I heard his quick step behind me; so I
ran away from him as hard as I could; so of course he soon caught me; in
the shrubbery where he first asked me to be his; and he kissed both my
hands again and again like wildfire, as he is, and he said, 'You are
right, dearest; let them talk of their trash while I tell you how I
adore you; poverty with you will be the soul's wealth; even misfortune,
by your side, would hardly be misfortune: let all the world go, and let
you and I be one, and live together; and die together; for now I see
I could not have lived without you, nor without your love.' And I
whispered something on his shoulder--no matter what; what signifies the
cackle of a goose? And we mingled our happy tears, and our hearts, and
our souls. Ah, Love is a sweet a dreadful passion: what we two have gone
through for one another in a few months! He dined with us, and Edward
and he sat a long, long time talking; I dare say it was only about their
odious money; still I envied Edward having him so long. But at last
he came up, and devoured me with his lovely grey eyes, and I sang him
Aileen Aroon, and he whispered things in my ear, oh, such sweet sweet,
idiotic, darling things; I will not part with even the shadow of one of
them by putting it on paper, only I am the blessedest creature in all
the world; and I only hope to goodness it is not very wicked to be so
happy as I am.”
_“Dec. 31st._--It is all settled. Alfred returns to Oxford to make up
for lost time; the time spent in construing me instead of Greek: and at
the end of term he is to come of age and marry--somebody. Marriage! what
a word to put down! it makes me tingle; it thrills me; it frightens me
deliciously: no, not deliciously; anything but: for suppose, being both
of us fiery, and they all say one of them ought to be cold blooded for
a pair to be happy, I should make him a downright bad wife. Why then I
hope I shall die in a year or two out of my darling's way, and let him
have a good one instead. I'd come back from the grave and tear her to
pieces.
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