“Dear mamma! now did it not? Then at parting he said he would come
to-morrow, and ask you for my hand; but I must intercede with you first,
or you would be sure to say 'No.' So I declined to interfere: 'W-w-what
was it to me?' I said. He begged and prayed me: 'Was it likely you would
give him such a treasure as Me unless I stood his friend?' (For the
b-b-brazen Thing turns humble now and then.) And, oh, mamma, he did so
implore me to pity him, and kept saying no man ever loved as he
loved me, and with his begging and praying me so passionately--oh, so
passionately--I felt something warm drop from his poor eyes on my hand.
Oh! oh! oh! oh!--What could I do? And then, you know, I wanted to
get away from him. So I am afraid I did just say 'Yes.' But only in a
whisper. Mamma! my own, good, kind, darling mamma, have pity on him and
on me; we love one another so.”
A shower of tender tears gushed out in support of this appeal and in a
moment she was caught up with Love's mighty arms, and her head laid on
her mother's yearning bosom. No word was needed to reconcile these two.
After a long silence, Mrs. Dodd said this would be a warning never
to judge her sweet child from a distance again, nor unheard. “And
therefore,” said she, “let me hear from your own lips how so serious an
attachment could spring up. Why, it is scarcely a month since you were
first introduced at that ball.”
“Mamma,” murmured Julia, hanging her head, “you are mistaken; we knew
each other before.”
Mrs. Dodd looked all astonishment.
“Now I _will_ ease my heart,” said Julia, impetuously, addressing some
invisible obstacle. “I tell you I am sick of having secrets from my own
mother.” And with this out it all came. She told the story of her heart
better than I have; and, woman-like, dwelt on the depths of loyalty
and delicate love she had read in Alfred's moonlit face that night at
Henley. She said no eloquence could have touched her like it. “Mamma,
something said to me, 'Ay, look at him well, for that is your husband to
be.'” She even tried to solve the mystery of her _soi-disant_ sickness:
“I was disturbed by a feeling so new and so powerful,* but, above all,
by having a secret from you; the first--the last.”
*Perhaps even this faint attempt at self-analysis was due to
the influence of Dr. Whately. For, by nature, young ladies
of this age seldom turn the eye inward.
“Well, darling, then why have a secret? Why not trust me, your friend as
well as your mother?”
“Ah! why, indeed? I am a puzzle to myself. I wanted you to know, and yet
I could not tell you. I kept giving you hints, and hoped so you would
take them, and make me speak out. But when I tried to tell you plump,
something kept pull--pull--pulling me inside, and I couldn't. Mark my
words! some day it will turn out that I am neither more nor less than a
fool.”
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