Hard-Pan: A Story of Bonanza FortunesBonner, Geraldine
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Hard-Pan: A Story of Bonanza Fortunes
Bonner, Geraldine
Gold miners -- Fiction; San Francisco (Calif.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
The old man's own homesickness was an incurable malady. As he had said
himself, he was too old for transplanting. He could not shake himself
down in the new rut. He could not get accustomed to the strange city
and its unfamiliar thoroughfares. Its alien aspect seemed to force in
upon him the sense of his insignificance and failure. He walked along
the streets and no one knew him. There were no cheery voices to cry
out, "So long, colonel," and wave a welcoming hand to a hat-brim.
People jostled him to one side, seeing only a thin, threadbare old man
in a faded coat. He had no consciousness that they would turn and look
at him, and point him out to the stranger from the East whom they were
"taking round." He was no more to Sacramento than it was to him. He
grew so to dread the feeling of oppressive melancholy that fell upon
him in its unfriendly streets that he gave up going out, and spent most
of his time in the garden or in Viola's room.
When with her he tried to be bright and to make the best of the
situation. He saw in her changed attitude nothing but blame of him,
and he would have borne anything uncomplainingly to win back the love
he thought she withheld. That another and a deeper feeling could be
causing her heaviness of spirit he did not dream. Like many another
man, he had no instinct to see into the hidden inner life of the child
that was bone of his bone and flesh of his flesh.
He hardly ever let his thoughts revert to the cause that had made her
take her hasty step. He knew he had been to blame, and the colonel was
a man who always forgot his own mistakes. In the course of time they
ceased to be mistakes, and, in his eyes, assumed the proportions of
worthy attempts that an unjust fate had frustrated. Just what he had
meant by using his daughter's name in his intercourse with Gault he
himself hardly knew--nothing to her actual detriment, that was certain.
If any one had breathed a word of blame against her, or tried to harm
one hair of her head, he would have been quick to rise in her defense,
wrathful as a tiger. The wrongs that do not come directly back, like
boomerangs, were wrongs the responsibility of which the colonel readily
shifted from his shoulders. He had wanted money for Viola, and he used
the readiest means to his hand to get it. The jingling of gold in his
pocket, the gladness of her face when he brought her some trifling
gift, made everything outside the pleasure of the moment count for
naught.
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