Hard-Pan: A Story of Bonanza FortunesBonner, Geraldine
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Hard-Pan: A Story of Bonanza Fortunes
Bonner, Geraldine
Gold miners -- Fiction; San Francisco (Calif.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
There was work for every one, and work was the purpose of existence.
She had claimed happiness as a right, demanded what is not to be; then,
when the inexorable ruling will had interposed, had dropped from the
ranks in the passion of a thwarted child. The glory and the dream--who
realized them? Who of the millions about her had touched the happiness
she had expected to seize and hold? Why should she be exempt from the
grinding that forces the grain from the chaff? All yearned, aspired,
dreamed, and yet, never achieving, lived on, learning their lesson of
obedience. Only some bowed their necks to the yoke more quickly than
others.
There was a second plane of life--a plane to which some were rudely
hurled and some crept by degrees. Here you went sternly on, and did
the work before you for its own sake, not for yours. And thus, in
time, self might be conquered and its insistent cry for recognition be
stifled. There was a corner in the world for every one, where they took
their broken idols and set them up, and some day would look at them and
smile over the anguish there had been when they fell.
The sunset deepened to a fine, transparent red, which looked as if it
had been clarified of all denser matter. It gave a flush to Viola's
upward-looking face. Her thoughts turned from the vague lines they had
been following to closer personal ones. The love for her father, that
had seemed frozen, gushed up in her heart. His face, with its wistful
glance, came before her; a hundred instances of her past coldness
rose in accusing memory. There was something better yet than work.
Love--that was the axis of the world; that made life possible, and the
sacrifice of self full of use and meaning; that was the key-note of the
whole structure of existence.
She rose to her feet, and rapidly, with her old firm alertness of
step, moved out through the plaza. She wanted to run, to find the old
man and, taking his head in her arms, whisper her contrition. Through
street after street her swift footfall woke sharp, decisive echoes. Her
face had lost its look of dejection and was set in lines of firmness
and resolution. People, as she passed, turned to look at her--at the
young face so full of a steady purpose, at the eyes deep with a woman's
aspirations. Her thoughts flew forward, high-strung, exalted, beating
against the confining limits of time and space. She would take him back
to San Francisco. They would go together. How had she had the heart to
hurt him so! Now, all blindness swept away by the breaking down of her
egotism, she knew what he had suffered.
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