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‘O my child, my child!’ he said, in a forlorn manner, ‘I am an unhappy
man to see you thus! What avails it to me that you do not reproach me,
if I so bitterly reproach myself!’ He bent his head, and spoke low to
her. ‘Louisa, I have a misgiving that some change may have been slowly
working about me in this house, by mere love and gratitude: that what the
Head had left undone and could not do, the Heart may have been doing
silently. Can it be so?’
She made him no reply.
‘I am not too proud to believe it, Louisa. How could I be arrogant, and
you before me! Can it be so? Is it so, my dear?’ He looked upon her
once more, lying cast away there; and without another word went out of
the room. He had not been long gone, when she heard a light tread near
the door, and knew that some one stood beside her.
She did not raise her head. A dull anger that she should be seen in her
distress, and that the involuntary look she had so resented should come
to this fulfilment, smouldered within her like an unwholesome fire. All
closely imprisoned forces rend and destroy. The air that would be
healthful to the earth, the water that would enrich it, the heat that
would ripen it, tear it when caged up. So in her bosom even now; the
strongest qualities she possessed, long turned upon themselves, became a
heap of obduracy, that rose against a friend.
It was well that soft touch came upon her neck, and that she understood
herself to be supposed to have fallen asleep. The sympathetic hand did
not claim her resentment. Let it lie there, let it lie.
It lay there, warming into life a crowd of gentler thoughts; and she
rested. As she softened with the quiet, and the consciousness of being
so watched, some tears made their way into her eyes. The face touched
hers, and she knew that there were tears upon it too, and she the cause
of them.
As Louisa feigned to rouse herself, and sat up, Sissy retired, so that
she stood placidly near the bedside.
‘I hope I have not disturbed you. I have come to ask if you would let me
stay with you?’
‘Why should you stay with me? My sister will miss you. You are
everything to her.’
‘Am I?’ returned Sissy, shaking her head. ‘I would be something to you,
if I might.’
‘What?’ said Louisa, almost sternly.
‘Whatever you want most, if I could be that. At all events, I would like
to try to be as near it as I can. And however far off that may be, I
will never tire of trying. Will you let me?’
‘My father sent you to ask me.’
‘No indeed,’ replied Sissy. ‘He told me that I might come in now, but he
sent me away from the room this morning—or at least—’
She hesitated and stopped.
‘At least, what?’ said Louisa, with her searching eyes upon her.
‘I thought it best myself that I should be sent away, for I felt very
uncertain whether you would like to find me here.’
‘Have I always hated you so much?’
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