Harper's New Monthly Magazine, Vol. 1. No 1, June 1850Various
General
Harper's New Monthly Magazine, Vol. 1. No 1, June 1850
Various
American literature -- Periodicals; Civilization -- Periodicals; Culture -- Periodicals
[Mademoiselle Clairon gives some further details similar to the
above, and adds that the noises finally ceased in about two years
and a half. After this, intending to change her residence, she
put up a bill on the house she was leaving; and many people made
the pretext of looking at the apartments an excuse for gratifying
their curiosity to see, in her every-day guise, the great
tragedian of the Théâtre Français.]
"One day I was told that an old lady desired to see my rooms.
Having always had a great respect for the aged, I went down to
receive her. An unaccountable emotion seized me on seeing her,
and I perceived that she was moved in a similar manner. I begged
her to sit down, and we were both silent for some time. At length
she spoke, and, after some preparation, came to the subject of
her visit.
"'I was, mademoiselle, the best friend of M. de S----, and the
only friend whom he would see during the last year of his life.
We spoke of you incessantly; I urging him to forget you,--he
protesting that he would love you beyond the tomb. Your eyes
which are full of tears allow me to ask you why you made him so
wretched; and how, with such a mind and such feelings as yours,
you could refuse him the consolation of once more seeing and
speaking to you?'
"'We can not,' I answered, 'command our sentiments. M. de S----
had merit and estimable qualities; but his gloomy, bitter, and
overbearing temper made me equally afraid of his company, his
friendship, and his love. To make him happy, I must have
renounced all intercourse with society, and even the exercise of
my talents. I was poor and proud; I desire, and hope I shall ever
desire, to owe nothing to any one but myself. My friendship for
him prompted me to use every endeavor to lead him to more just
and reasonable sentiments: failing in this, and persuaded that
his obstinacy proceeded less from the excess of his passion than
from the violence of his character, I took the firm resolution to
separate from him entirely. I refused to see him in his last
moments, because the sight would have rent my heart; because I
feared to appear too barbarous if I remained inflexible, and to
make myself wretched if I yielded. Such, madame, are the
motives of my conduct--motives for which, I think, no one can
blame me.'
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