Harper's New Monthly Magazine, Vol. V, No. XXIX., October, 1852Various
Religion
Harper's New Monthly Magazine, Vol. V, No. XXIX., October, 1852
Various
American literature -- Periodicals; Civilization -- Periodicals; Culture -- Periodicals
It grew dark, like night, and there came flash after flash, peal after
peal. I could not stand--I leaned against his arm. At last there
shone all around us a frightful glare, as if the whole wood were in
flames--a crash of boughs--a roar above, as though the heavens were
falling--then, silence.
Death had passed close by us, and smote us not--and Death was the
precursor of Love.
We looked at one another, Laurence and I: then, with a great cry, our
hearts--long-tortured--sprang together. There never can be such a
meeting, save that of two parted ones, who meet in heaven. No words
were spoken, save a murmur--"Adelaide!" "Laurence!"--but we knew that
between us two there was but one soul. We stood there--all the while
the storm lasted. He sheltered me in his arms, and I felt neither the
thunder nor the rain. I feared not life nor death, for I now knew that
in either I should never be divided from him.
* * * Ours was a brief engagement. Laurence wished it so; and I
disputed not--I never disputed with him in any thing. Besides, I was
not happy at home--my sisters did not understand him. They jested
with me because he was grave and reserved--even subject to moody fits
sometimes. They said, "I should have a great deal to put up with;
but it was worth while, for Mr. Shelmerdine's grand estate atoned
for all." My Laurence! as if I had ever thought whether he were rich
or poor! I smiled, too, at my sisters' jests about his melancholy,
and the possibility of his being "a bandit in disguise." None truly
knew him--none but I! Yet I was half afraid of him at times; but that
was only from the intensity of my love. I never asked him of his for
me--how it grew--or why he had so long concealed it; enough for me that
it was there. Yet it was always calm: he never showed any passionate
emotion, save one night--the night before our wedding day.
I went with him to the gate myself, walking in the moonlight under the
holly trees. I trembled a little; but I was happy--very happy. He held
me long in his arms ere he would part with me--the last brief parting
ere we would have no need to part any more. I said, looking up from his
face unto the stars, "Laurence, in our full joy, let us thank God, and
pray Him to bless us."
His heart seemed bursting: he bowed his proud head, dropped it down
upon my shoulder, and cried, "Nay, rather pray Him to _forgive_ me.
Adelaide, I am not worthy of happiness--I am not worthy of you."
He, to talk in this way! and about me! but I answered him soothingly,
so that he might feel how dear was my love--how entire my trust.
He said, at last, half mournfully, "You are content to take me then,
just as I am; to forgive my past--to bear with my present--to give
hope to my future. Will you do this, my love, my Adelaide?"
I answered, solemnly, "I will." Then, for the first time, I dared to
lift my arms to his neck; and as he stooped I kissed his forehead. It
was the seal of this my promise--which may God give me strength to keep
evermore!
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