Harper's New Monthly Magazine, Vol. V, No. XXIX., October, 1852Various
Religion
Harper's New Monthly Magazine, Vol. V, No. XXIX., October, 1852
Various
American literature -- Periodicals; Civilization -- Periodicals; Culture -- Periodicals
I went to the cottage--alone, of course. I asked the old woman to let
me come in and rest, for I was a stranger, weak and tired. She did so
kindly, remembering, perhaps, how I had once noticed the boy. He was
her grandson she told me--her daughter's child.
Her daughter! And this old creature was a coarse, rough-spoken woman--a
laborer's wife. Laurence Shelmerdine--the elegant--the refined--what
madness must have possessed him!
"She died very young, then, your daughter?" I found courage to say.
"Ay, ay; in a few months after the boy's birth. She was but a weakly
thing at best, and she had troubles enow."
Quickly came the blood to my heart--to my cheek--in bitter, bitter
shame. Not for myself, but for him. I shrank like a guilty thing before
that mother's eye. I dared not ask--what I longed to hear--concerning
the poor girl, and her sad history.
"Is the child like her?" was all I could say, looking to where the
little one was playing, at the far end of the garden. I was glad not to
see him nearer. "Was his mother as beautiful as he?"
"Ay, a good-looking lass enough; but the little lad's like his father,
who was a gentleman born: though Laurence had better ha' been a
plowman's son. A bad business Bess made of it. To this day I dunnot
know her right name, nor little Laurence's there; and so I canna
make his father own him. He ought, for the lad's growing up as grand
a gentleman as himself: he'll never do to live with poor folk like
granny."
"Alas!" I cried, forgetting all but my compassion; "then how will the
child bear his lot of shame!"
"Shame!" and the old woman came up fiercely to me. "You'd better mind
your own business: my Bess was as good as you."
I trembled violently, but could not speak. The woman went on:
"I dunnot care if I blab it all out, though Bess begged me not. She was
a fool, and the young fellow something worse. His father tried--may-be
he wished to try, too--but they couldna undo what had been done. My
girl was safe married to him, and the little lad's a gentleman's lawful
son."
Oh! joy beyond belief! Oh! bursting blessed tears! My Laurence! my
Laurence!
* * * I have no clear recollection of any thing more, save that I
suppose the woman thought me mad, and fled out of the cottage. My first
consciousness is of finding myself quite alone, with the door open, and
a child looking in at me in wonderment, but with a gentleness such as I
have seen my husband wear. No marvel I had loved that childish face:
it was such as might have been _his_ when he was a boy.
I cried, tremulously, "Laurence! little Laurence!" He came to me,
smiling and pleased. One faint struggle I had--forgive me, poor dead
girl!--and then I took the child in my arms, and kissed him as though I
had been his mother For thy sake--for thy sake--my husband!
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