Harry Joscelyn; vol. 1 of 3Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Harry Joscelyn; vol. 1 of 3
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Families -- England -- Fiction; Inheritance and succession -- Fiction
could he put up with it? Sometimes the blood seemed to boil in his veins
and swell as if they would burst; and there came upon him, as upon so
many others, that wild sudden burst of longing--oh! to have wings like a
dove, to fly away! It is not always an elevating or noble longing; it
is the natural outcry of that sense of the intolerable which is in all
unaccustomed to trouble. To escape from it is the first impulse of the
undisciplined mind. Even when experience has taught us that we cannot
escape from it, nature still suggests that cry, that desire. Oh to have
wings like a dove! oh for a lodge in some vast wilderness! oh to turn
our backs upon our pain and all its circumstances, and flee away! And
the less this impulse is spiritual and visionary, the less it is
restrained by that deeper knowledge so soon acquired that we can rarely
escape from our troubles by any summary road, seeing that we can never
escape from ourselves. Harry began to get bewildered by the rising fever
in his heart of this longing to escape. Why should not he escape? cut
all the bonds of which so many had already been rent asunder for him,
throw family, and home (which had rejected him), and duty, and custom,
and the life he knew, and the circumstances which had hitherto shaped
it, all away with one effort, and emancipate himself?
He had roused a little under the influence of this suggestion when his
uncle returned. Mr. Joscelyn had a compunction in his mind which made
him very conciliatory to Harry. To give him what he seemed to want, to
subtract so much, even if not very much, from his own possessions in
order to give to Harry, was an idea which he would not contemplate. If
Harry waited long enough he would get it; but in the meantime, a demand
upon him was like a warning that he had lived long enough, and that his
money was wanted for a new generation, which was as intolerable to Uncle
Henry as young Harry’s troubles were to him. He would not take upon
himself the burden of setting his grand-nephew up in life, but at the
same time he felt it was a hardship that the young fellow should not
have some one to set him up in life, and was conciliatory and soothing
by a kind of generous instinct, an instinct not generous enough to go
further. He came in in a mood which was much more agreeable to Harry
than that in which he had gone out, and which raised Mrs. Eadie’s hopes
high, who knew that her master did not often come back in this way, or
show himself so amiable. Mr. Joscelyn told Harry all the story of the
waste-paper, and gave him great insight into the workings of the Club.
“If you are faithful to your native county, as I have been, I daresay
you will end by being a member of it,” he said.
“It is not very likely, Sir,” said Harry. “I don’t care if I were never
to see the old place again.”
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