"Then I must be patient a while longer," he said, suppressing a sigh.
When would the child know her mind and love him? It was inexpressibly
sweet, this shy reception of his loving attention and most inadequate
response to the warmth of his advances. There was an indescribable
charm in the quick glance that returned his steady regard, in the
slight, cool pressure of the little hand that could only be retained in
his warm clasp very much against its will. She still preferred the
presence of her beloved brothers with herself and Paul, to being alone
with him.
Then, to his comfort, a vivid recollection of her face recurred to his
mind, when he had told her he was going away for some months. She had
faced round upon him quickly, looking very white and perplexed.
"But you can’t," she had persisted again and again. "You can’t—you are
engaged to me."
"I promised your mother that I would go," he returned, watching her face
closely. "Only she can release me, but I shall not ask her to do so—it
would not be honourable. Shall you care, Hazel? Shall you miss me?"
But she would not tell him.
A few days later Helen, with her gentle smile, had most unexpectedly
cancelled the sentence of banishment.
"It is of no use your going, Paul," she had said. "The child will fret
and you—you will be miserable."
"And so you feel you cannot endure the boys’ banter?" Paul asked of his
companion, somewhat ruefully.
"Oh well," she answered cheerfully, "I must, for the present. It is
rather nice being engaged to you," she continued naïvely, "and it is so
convenient."
"Convenient?" poor Paul echoed blankly.
"You see," she explained, "I never could get about anywhere: the boys
being almost always away, and Miles busy. Besides, it was very lonely,
with only a servant, about twenty yards behind you. But now, now I can
go great distances, in the trap if we wish, and we can talk, and
altogether it is very comfortable."
"Very," agreed Paul, at once amused and dismayed.
Something dry in the tone of his response made her look up quickly.
"I hope you don’t misunderstand me," she said timidly. "I should not
like you to think I was only making use of you. I—I am very fond of
you," she added, her voice sinking, "and I enjoy being engaged, very
much."
Paul sighed. It was a great admission, this, from her; but oh, how
unsatisfying! It was but a whet to his appetite, it made him hungrier
than ever.
A silence fell between them.
"You have not yet told me what the boys call _you_," he said presently,
trying to speak lightly.
"I really could not," she replied, and he was surprised and distressed
to see that she shrank from him, albeit the movement was scarcely
perceptible.
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