He that will not when he may; vol. IIIOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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He that will not when he may; vol. III
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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“You meant to leave us yourself, but to let your money go as alms to the
revolutionaries?” cried Spears, with a thrill of agitation in his voice
which seemed to make the room ring. “Yes, I suppose you might have
fallen among people who would have permitted it. (The strange thing was
that most of the members of the society had been of this opinion, and
that it was all that Spears could do to rescue the money which the
others thought lawfully forfeited.) But we are not of that kind. We
don’t want filthy money with the man away, or even with his heart away.”
The orator held his head high; there was a certain scorn about his
gestures, about his mouth. He tried to show by a careless smile and air
that what he was doing was of no importance, an easy and certain step of
which there could be no doubt; but the thrill of excited feeling in him
could not be got out of his voice. And Paul, perhaps, had even more
excuse for excitement.
“I will not take a farthing of the money,” he said.
“Then you will carry it back yourself, my lad. I have washed my hands of
it. If you think I will permit a penny of yours to go into our treasury
apart from yourself and your sympathy and your help! I would have taken
all that and welcome. I have told you already--to little use--what you
were to me, Paul Markham. The Bible is right after all about idols,
though many is the word I’ve spoken against it. I made an idol of you,
and lo! my image is broken into a thousand pieces. It is like giving the
thing a kick the more,” he said, with a sudden burst of harsh laughter,
“to think when it was all over and ended that I would take the money!
It shows how much you knew me.”
“Then it is a mere matter of personal offence and disappointment,
Spears?”
“Offence!” he cried. “Yes, offence if you like the word--as it is
offence when your friend puts a knife into you. The first thing you feel
is surprise. Who could believe it? He! to stab you, when you were
leaning upon him. It takes all a man’s credulity to believe that. But
when it is done--” he added with one of the sudden smiles which used to
illuminate his rugged countenance, but now lighted it up with a gleam of
angry melancholy, just touched with humour, “you don’t take money from
him, Paul.”
“Nor does he take it from you,” said Paul, quickly. “Spears, this is all
folly. It is not a matter of passion, as you make it. Say I am as much
in the wrong as you like. I did not know my own mind. I have had enough
to go through in the last six weeks to teach me many things more
important than my own mind. I can’t go with you; I have found out
that--but what then? I don’t lose my interest in you; we don’t cease to
be friends. As for stabbing you, putting a knife into you--that is
ludicrous,” he cried, with an angry laugh. “It is like a couple of
lovers in a French novel; not two Englishmen and friends.”
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