Silence! Silence! Unwavering silence! The car wheels seemed to beat
this injunction up to him with every revolution. Silence for the sake
of others, some of whom were supremely worthy, one at least of whom
might be wretchedly unworthy! Above all, silence for the sake of his
vow as a vicar of Christ on earth. What was it to be a Christian if not
to be a miniature Christ,—a poor, stumbling, tottering, stained and
far-off pattern of the mighty archetype of human goodness and
perfection? According to his strength, he, John Hampstead, was to be
permitted to suffer as a saviour of a very small part of mankind and in
a very temporary and no doubt in a very inadequate way, the virtue of
which should lie in the fact that it pointed beyond himself to the one
saviour who was supremely able. He, too, must be "dumb before his
shearers", not stubbornly, not guiltily, and not spectacularly, but
faithfully and for a worth-while purpose,—the saving of a man.
For a change had come swiftly in the relative importance of the motives
which determined his course. With the actual coming of his cross, he
had caught a loftier vision. It was not to save the few remaining weeks
or months or years of the life of a saintly and beautiful woman that he
was to stand silent even to trial, conviction, and disgrace. It was to
save the soul of a man, a wretched, vain, ornamental and unutilitarian
sort of person, but none the less unusually gifted in many of his
faculties, perhaps wanting only an experience like this to precipitate
the better elements in his nature into the foundation of such a
character as his mother believed him to possess.
This change of emphasis strengthened Hampstead enormously. It gave him
calm and resolution, increasing self-control and fortitude, a dignity of
bearing that promised at least to remain unbroken, and a sense of the
presence of the Presence which it seemed could not depart from him.
When John reached home, he found Rose, Dick, and Tayna waiting
anxiously. A sight of his face, with the new strength and dignity upon
it, allayed their apprehension, but the solemnity of manner in which he
gathered them about him in the study roused their fears again. Briefly
he related how the diamonds had been discovered in his safe deposit
vault. Sternly but kindly he repressed the hot outburst of Dick;
sympathetically he tried to stem the tears of Tayna, but before the pale
face and the dry, fixed eyes of Rose he stood a moment, mute and
hesitant, then said with tender brotherliness:
"Old girl, in the silence of waiting for my vindication, it is going to
be easier for you and the children to trust me than for others. But
even for you it will be hard. Others can withdraw from me, can wash
their hands of me; and they may do it. You cannot, and would not if you
could."
Rose clasped her brother’s hand in silent assurance; but Hampstead went
on with saddened voice to portray what was to be expected.
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