"Let me finish," she protested. "I am even less humiliated. The thing
required to charm you was a thing I did not possess!"
"Beauty is a great possession," Hampstead smiled. "I have been and am
sensible to it. I was sensible to your beauty to the last. The woman I
love is beautiful."
"The woman you love!" Marien’s whole manner changed. Her face took on
the tigerish look. "There is some one else then? At least," she added
reproachfully, "you might have spared me this."
"It was necessary," the minister replied quietly, "if we were really to
understand each other."
The gravity of the man’s tone, as well as some subtle recovery within
herself, checked the tigerish impulse. Swiftly it gave way to pain and
humility again.
"You—you are to marry?" she faltered weakly.
"No," he replied, with ineffable sadness. "This—" and again that
comprehensive gesture which he had used so frequently to indicate the
catastrophe which had come upon him, "this has dashed that hope
entirely!"
The actress stood completely confounded. Within herself she wondered
why she did not fly into a jealous passion. Surely she was changing;
she felt half bewildered, half distrustful of her own moods in which she
had believed so surely before. She was also completely staggered by
this crowning revelation of the capacity of the man for sacrifice.
Instead of the jealous passion, she felt a sisterly kind of sympathy;
but it was only after a very considerable interval that Marien trusted
herself to ask with trembling voice:
"She is very—very beautiful—this—this woman whom you love?"
The question was put very softly, meditatively almost.
"To me, yes," replied the minister with emphasis. "I think you would
say so too."
"You were engaged?"
"Not when I met you first; but there had been a bond of very close
sympathy between us. After you were gone, I felt that I had never
really loved you; and my heart fastened itself on her. I loved her and
told her so. But I felt it my duty to tell her the truth about you.
Manlike, I thought she would comprehend. Woman-like, she comprehended
more than I thought. She believed me weak and uncertain. She loved me
still, but with a pain of disappointment in her heart. She put my love
upon a kind of probation. The probation has lasted five years. It was
almost finished. After what the papers have published in the past few
days, you can imagine that now all is over."
"But you will write to her? You will see her? You will explain?"
Marien questioned in self-forgetful eagerness.
"Explain," he smiled sadly. "What a futility! What explanation could
there be after what I had told her? You know a woman’s heart. More
firmly than any other, she would be forced to an implicit belief in what
the newspapers have falsely intimated concerning our relations in the
past few weeks."
"But I will go to her myself!" Marien exclaimed impetuously. "I will
tell her the truth."
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