Bessie did listen, and as gravely as John spoke to her,—listened until
her eyes were first perplexed and then downcast. Sitting thus, seeing
nothing, she saw everything; all that it might mean to her to become the
partner of this public shame. She thought of her college friends, of
her mother with her social aspirations, of her strong and high-standing
father and the circle of his business and personal associates; of the
part she hoped herself to play in the new political life that was coming
to her sex. She saw it and for a moment was afraid, cowering before it
as her lover had cowered. John, in an agony of suspense, watched this
conflict staging itself graphically upon the features he loved so
deeply, gleaning as he waited another two-edged truth, and that truth
this: _The love of a woman may make a man surpassingly stronger; it may
also make him immeasurably weaker_. It depends on the woman. He was
weaker now. He had accepted her, demanded her of God, and God had given
her. She was part of him now. It must no longer be his judgment but
their judgment which ruled. She was forming their judgment now. He
leaned forward apprehensively, like a criminal awaiting his fate. He
had surrendered his independence of action. Had he gained or lost
thereby?
Bessie stood up suddenly. Her face was still white, but her square
little chin with its softly rounded corners was firmly set.
"Your decision," she affirmed stoutly, "was the right decision. Your
course has been the right course. You must not waver now. I command—I
compel you to go straight forward. And I will stand with you—go out
with you. From this moment on, your duty is my duty; your lot shall be
my lot."
A smile of heavenly happiness broke like a sunset on the face of
Hampstead.
"Thank God!" he murmured reverently; "thank God!"
And then as a surging Niagara of new strength rushed over him, he
clasped her tightly, exclaiming enthusiastically: "I feel strong enough
now, strong enough for everything!"
Standing thus, smiling blissfully into each other’s faces, the lovers
became again the two argonauts upon a shoreless, timeless sea. As they
came back, Bessie, a look half mischievous and half bashful upon her
face, pleaded softly:
"John! Ask me something, please?"
"Ask you something," her lover murmured, with a look of dutiful
affection, "why, there is nothing more that I can ask." He sighed
contentedly.
"But put it into words. Something to which I can answer Yes," she said,
a happy blush stealing across her cheeks.
The big man gazed at her with a puzzled expression.
"So—so that our engagement can be announced in the papers to-morrow
morning."
John asked her, grimacing delight in his sudden comprehension, and took
her answer in a kiss. But immediately after he became serious.
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