Most astonishing to John was the fact that while he felt rage and
humiliation at having so duped himself over Marien Dounay, he had no
sense of pain. He was like a man run over by a railroad train who
experiences no throb of anguish but only a sickish, numbing sensation in
his mangled limbs.
Recognizing that his condition was not normal, Hampstead wondered if he
could be going insane. He was eating little; he was taking no interest
in his work. He went and came from the theater automatically, impatient
of company, impatient of noise, of newspaper headlines, of interruptions
of any sort, anxious only to get to his room, to throw himself into a
chair or upon a bed, and relapse into a state of mental drooling. After
several days he roused from one of these reveries with the clear
impression that some presence had been there in the room, had breathed
upon him, had touched his lips, and spoken to him. He leaped up and
looked about him. He opened the door and scanned the corridor. No one
was there,—no echo of corporeal footsteps resounded.
Realizing that it must have been his own dream that waked him, he came
back sheepishly and tried again to induce that state of mental dusk in
which the odd sensation had been experienced. Soon he roused again with
the knowledge that the presence had been with him and had departed; but
this time a clear picture of the vision remained. It was a woman,—it
was like Marien. It was, he told himself, the image of his Love. He
entertained it sadly, like an apparition from the grave. The vision
came again, but with repeated visits, its form began to change, until it
no longer resembled the form of Marien.
This was exciting; the image might change still further till it
definitely resembled some one else.
This surmise proved correct. It did change more and more until identity
was for a time completely lost, but as days passed, the features ceased
to blur and jumble. The eyes were now constantly blue; the complexion
was consistently pink and white; the hair was brown and began to appear
crinkly; the lips grew shorter, and of a more youthful red; the chin
broadened and appeared fuller and softer. One morning these rosier lips
smiled with a rarer spontaneity than the vision had ever shown before,
and with the smile came two dimples into the peach-blow cheeks.
"Bessie!" John cried, with a welcoming shout of incoherent joy.
"Bessie!"
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