Léon stood there with his eyes on the ground, white as a sheet and
trembling. He could not look at Rose at all. He felt as if her eyes were
fire from Heaven.
Rose spoke again. “Léon,” she said, “do you think I might have some
tea?”
“_Mon Dieu_--Rose--” he whispered under his breath. “_Mon Dieu_--what
must you think--”
“If I could have some roll and butter, too,” she went on, ignoring his
murmur, “it would be very nice. I am rather hungry.” Léon turned and
without speaking passed quickly into the house. Rose sat down opposite
Madame and put the Baedeker on the table. Madame Gérard lifted her heavy
eyelids and looked at Rose.
She did not know what was coming, but she meant whatever came--scorn,
anger or contempt--to take it.
She was not sure what Rose wanted--she waited to be sure.
Rose met her eyes with a grave and infinitely kindly look. “I am so
sorry,” she said slowly in her hesitating French. “We meant to help you,
but I’m afraid we didn’t.”
Madame drew a quick breath, she had not expected this. It had not
occurred to her that Rose would be sorry; that hard, stubborn substance
that was in her breast melted once and for all towards Rose. The tears
filled her eyes and fell slowly into her lap.
“My dear,” she said, “no one could help me, and I have not even--helped
myself.”
“I was stupid,” Rose went on gently, “and I didn’t understand; but I do
understand now. What I wanted to say before Léon comes back was, that I
_know_ he meant not to make things worse. You _will_ forgive him, won’t
you, because it was my fault really. If I had understood, you see, I
should have known he couldn’t help you--not in that way--and I think I
could have stopped him.”
Madame Gérard nodded. “I have nothing to forgive your husband,” she
said, choosing her words carefully. “He has done me no great wrong;
always I knew where his heart was--it is still there, Madame--it is in
your hands. I--” said Madame Gérard, looking away from Rose’s pitying,
tender eyes--“have what I deserve. I have nothing.”
The waiter came with the tea. Léon returned at the same time. He could
not keep away, and yet it seemed to him as if there had never been less
of him anywhere--his self-respect, his manhood had left him.
Rose turned to him, and with a little gesture of perfect tenderness and
trust she slipped her hand over his. It was as if she gave him back his
soul. He drew himself up--strength passed into him. She had come back,
she was his--somehow or other she was there to save him, and at least he
could be generous--he could let himself be saved. He no longer cared
that he must be a poor figure in her sight, and he forgot that there was
any other sight but hers.
She withdrew her hand again and went on very slowly, still in French,
including him in the conversation with a little wave of the hand.
“I have just,” she said to Madame Gérard, “been talking to Monsieur
Gérard. He thinks I have improved very much in my French.”
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