Henrietta's Wish; Or, DomineeringYonge, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Mary)
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Henrietta's Wish; Or, Domineering
Yonge, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Mary)
Domestic fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
“My own impression is,” said her father, in a calm, kind, yet almost
reproving tone, as if to warn her to repress her agitation, “that there
is no reason to give up hope, although it is impossible yet to ascertain
the extent of the injury.”
Beatrice retreated a step or two: she stood by the table, one hand upon
it, as if for support, yet her figure quite erect, her eyes fixed on his
face, and her voice firm, though husky, as she said, slowly and quietly,
“Papa, if Fred dies, it is my doing.”
His face did not express surprise or horror--nothing but kindness and
compassion, while he answered, “My poor girl, I was afraid how it might
have been.” Then he led her to a chair and sat down by her side, so
as to let her perceive that he was ready to listen, and would give her
time. He might be in haste, but it was no time to show it.
She now spoke with more hurry and agitation, “Yes, yes, papa, it was the
very thing you warned me against--I mean--I mean--the being set in my
own way, and liking to tease the boys. O if I could but speak to tell
you all, but it seems like a weight here choking me,” and she touched
her throat. “I can’t get it out in words! O!” Poor Beatrice even groaned
aloud with oppression.
“Do not try to express it,” said her father: “at least, it is not I who
can give you the best comfort. Here”--and he took up a Prayer Book.
“Yes, I feel as if I could turn there now I have told you, papa,” said
Beatrice; “but when I could not get at you, everything seemed dried up
in me. Not one prayer or confession would come;--but now, O! now you
know it, and--and--I feel as if He would not turn away His face. Do you
know I did try the 51st Psalm, but it would not do, not even ‘deliver me
from blood-guiltiness,’ it would only make me shudder! O, papa, it was
dreadful!”
Her father’s answer was to draw her down on her knees by his side, and
read a few verses of that very Psalm, and a few clauses of the prayer
for persons troubled in mind, and he ended with the Lord’s Prayer.
Beatrice, when it was over, leant her head against him, and did not
speak, nor weep, but she seemed refreshed and relieved. He watched her
anxiously and affectionately, doubting whether it was right to bestow so
much time on her exclusively, yet unwilling to leave her. When she again
spoke, it was in a lower, more subdued, and softer voice, “Aunt Mary
will forgive me, I know; you will tell her, papa, and then it will
not be quite so bad! Now I can pray that he may be saved--O,
papa--disobedient, and I the cause; how could I ever bear the thought?”
“You can only pray,” replied her father.
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