“I see what it is,” he said, filling his pipe. “They are all in the
ring, and they are afraid a rank outsider is going to break it. And so
he shall!”
He finished with a volley of oaths.
The next moment tears had sprung to his eyes. Tears of chagrin, rage,
disgust, of resentment against himself. How dare he be so arrogant
when the words of the honest old man, spoken while the hand of death
was upon him, were still in his ears. Mediocrity had its function, its
reason to be. Until he had grasped that elementary truth he could never
emerge, clad in valor and completeness, upon that high platform which
nature had designed him to occupy. “Cad” Northcote had been the name
bestowed upon him at school by his humbler but honester fellows: the
same term of opprobrium had now been applied to him in a more public
manner.
It was unworthy that he should ascribe the bitter antagonism he had
raised against himself to the eternal feud of mediocrity versus
genius. That fine gentleman, the old judge, was incapable of bearing
false testimony. Outface it as he might, the flaw was in himself. It
had been there from the beginning. The genie in which his intellectual
pride was centred was the seat of the canker. Every time he employed
it he must be aware of his fatal gift. It was a sinister talisman, or,
in the words of the judge, a two-edged sword. Better a thousand times
not to be distinguished from the mediocrity he was never weary of
despising, than to be at the mercy of a genius that would compass his
destruction.
He took up another newspaper, and turned his attention to an article
entitled: “‘Bow-wow’ Brudenell, by an Old Friend.” In the course of
a column of appreciation it said: “Public life is the poorer to-day
by a memorable figure. Mr. Justice Brudenell had achieved an odd sort
of fame. It rested upon his idiosyncrasies upon the bench; upon the
curious, irascible, barking delivery he affected, which earned him
the name by which he was always spoken of in the circles in which he
moved. In the judgment of his profession he was hardly considered
to be a ‘strong’ judge, nor was he widely popular; yet although he
had detractors, he was always listened to with respect. His queer
little tricks of manner and his somewhat formidable aspect created an
impression in the public mind which cannot be said to have been wholly
in his favor. Yet none could have told from his demeanor on the bench
what the man was at heart. It would require the pen of a Charles Lamb
to limn him in his quiddity. To his private friends he was a perpetual
delight and stimulus; he stood for all that was worthiest in the human
character. He kept a too fearful conscience ever to be truly eminent in
public life, but no kinder, humbler, humaner gentleman ever walked the
earth than Joseph Brudenell.
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