“Emma Murray, alias Warden, alias Harrison,” said his visitor, whose
tone of gentleness was now charged with deliberation.
“Then how and why do you dare to come here?” cried Northcote.
“I bring you my thanks,” she said, with a sudden consummate transition
to humility. “I bring the gratitude of an outcast to him who has
delivered her from a deeper shame than any she has suffered.”
At first the bewilderment of the advocate would not yield; the
revelation of the last creature in the world he looked to see in his
attic had seemed to arrest his nature. But hardly had she rendered him
her homage with somewhat of the sombre dignity of one who seeks by
suffering to efface her stains, than the old devouring curiosity of two
evenings previously returned to him. In the prison he had not seen her
face; in the dock he had not permitted his eyes once to stray towards
her. She was engraved in the tablets of his imagination as a foul
and sordid creature, dead to feeling, yet susceptible of the loss of
freedom, horrified by the too-definite thought of a barbarous doom; yet
over and above everything a denizen of the gutter, wretched, stupid,
and unclean. It was amazing to see her stand before him in this frank
guise.
Peering at her through the subdued flames of the fire and the lamp, he
saw that she had contrived to inhabit her stains in a kind of chastity.
It was a trick of her calling, perhaps; yet if trick it was, it was
subtle, consummate, and complete. As far as his eyes could pierce the
texture of her secrecy, her face was that of a woman of forty. It
was pale and unembellished; the cheeks were wan; the features, but
slightly defaced, were possessed of a certain original fineness of
line, like the handiwork of some little known craftsman who had been
touched by genius. There were the remains of a not inconsiderable
splendor strewn about her, particularly in her dark, enfolding, and
luminous eyes. Suffering was everywhere visible, even in the hair,
whose natural sallow hue was peeping through its dye. In form she was
large, but not massive; ample, flowing in contour, with the powerful,
yet graceful, moulding of a panther.
“Had you not expected something different?” she said, standing up
before a scrutiny he did not disguise, and speaking with a mournfulness
that seemed to challenge him.
“You have guessed my thoughts,” said Northcote, without lowering his
gaze.
“I was not always as I was,” she said, letting each syllable fall
passionless. “I sank deeply, but I am risen again. I am praying that
with the aid of one I may scale the heights. I even hope to reach that
which in the beginning was above my stature.”
“I am glad to hear it,” Northcote muttered.
“That is cruel,” said his visitor with a shiver. “Such a phrase from
your mouth wounds me like a sword.”
“I am afraid I don’t understand,” said Northcote, almost with
indifference.
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