With perfect composure she proceeded to divest herself of her hat
and coat, and carried them confidently behind the curtain, as though
already she were perfect mistress of his house. When she returned she
seated herself in the chair against the fire.
Northcote had not protest to raise. He could not meet the challenge
in the eyes of Medusa. In their baleful lustre he had read the abrupt
limit to his own imperious will, he beheld as through a mirage the
prefiguration of his own doom. Even as he had conquered others by the
fearlessness of his own quality, he had himself been conquered by the
fearlessness of hers. He was no common advocate, but this was no common
harlot. Prayer and devotion alone could have saved him from toils such
as these; but of prayer and devotion he no longer commanded the use.
There was a fissure in his armor; and through that aperture, small as
it was, the deadly, unnamable thing that had crawled into his room had
been able to plant its look.
“I am trying to think,” said his visitor, as she reclined in the chair
with her elbows outspread and her hands clasped behind her hair, which
was profuse and ordered with rare precision, “I am trying to think
what it is about you that has caused me to love you. I do not think it
can be your voice altogether, for although when it chooses it can sound
so low and delicious, it can also sound harsh and rude. No, my noble
warrior, I think there is a deeper cause. Is it not that our natures
are alike? Are they not so similar? We are not of the common herd.
We can think, we can feel, we have a little knowledge, and do we not
possess enormous powers of resentment? Life has not been very gentle
with you and me, but we will not complain about it much. Can we not
quietly choose our own weapons and go our own way to work in order that
we may avenge ourselves? It is for your strength and spirit that I love
you. Give me a kiss.”
Northcote obeyed.
She caressed his hands with an extreme tenderness.
“How strong, square, massive, and beautifully ugly they are!” she
exclaimed. “I am sure you could fell a bullock if you doubled your
fist. I love you even for these. I would rather be strangled by strong
hands than I would be fondled by weak ones. If you cared to drive your
fist into the world, you could knock a hole in it and let out a few
of its wrongs. How tall and young and splendid you look. And strength
means bravery.”
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